Did i just break down over my blazer?

[Tristin.]

ok, move this mods if its in the wrong place. but i had no clue where was appropriate.

Usually, i carry my blazer everywhere, i don't wear it because i look stupid in it, but this morning, i put it on. i then proceeded to fall to the floor in tears and throw it across the room. i felt like i was being stared at, that i was fat and that everyone was judging me. this has led me to think about the fact i constantly feel like im being judged, and that i over analyse ever single part of myself.

i will redo my hair if even a single hair is annoying me, if my air wont go right, i will throw things, cry, shout, scream and break things. I constantly feel fat even though i know im not, this has led me to feel like i don't fit any of my clothes. I feel like i look stupid in everything i wear.

I often cry over how i look (face etc) and find myself scouring pictures of boys, finding parts of them id love to have, or boys id love to be/look like.

what is wrong with me?

[Dimitri]

I think you are just unhappy, I think you need to talk to your mom or dad or a school counselor. I think that you need ot be happy with what God gave you but that is up to you.

Psychology says around your age you need to be going through the stages of Self-Actualization. You need to look in the mirrior and find the things you do like and then over time find more things, talk to your twin, he can help you.

[Tristin.]

the thing is rob, i cant find anything. my smile is stupid, my forehead is too big, my chin is too pointed, my nose is weird, my eyes are the wrong colour, my hair is too fine, my chest is fucked up due to my prematurity. i cant find a single thing that is good.

[Dimitri]

What about your height? Personally I think you are fine, perfect. A lot of people are unhappy with how we look but I think we need to try and think positivly, can you talk to your parents or school counselors?

[IcarusLives]

Alright honestly not to sound like a dick but I don't personally get why people are un-happy with how they look... You don't have a choice over that.

As an example, if it's in terms of being over-weight in specific and you're NOT Body-Dysmorphic, then simply make a plan of action. Exercise, eat right, etc...

If it's Body Dysmorphia, Anorexia, etc... Then that's the time to get counseling to help you out as well however. Otherwise you can still get counseling *obviously* if you feel you need support / help in general, definitely not saying otherwise.

Otherwise just realize you're born the way you are, and that someone's going to find you damn attractive in this world, there's someone for everyone...

We're all born as attractive as we'll ever be, seeing as... We're born as who we are... We don't have a say in our physical appearance to that extent...

I don't know it almost seems too simple to even have to mention... Seems logical to not give a fuck and just be yourself in that regard in my opinion.

[SosbanFach]

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[Jimmy Page]

Im tired so ill make this quick.
1.appearance isnt everything,personality is alot more important,and you are one off the sweetest,nicest,most caring persons on this planet:)
2.theres nothing wrong with you,alot of people feel the exact same way,me being one of them,constantly feeling like im being judged by everyone,trying to make everything about me look perfect,ive gotten to a point where i even hate my breathing pattern.
3.all i can tell you is,be proud,you are who. you are and no one in the world can change that :)

[Tristin.]

thanks guys. i just dont know what to do. iv been on the verge of anorexia before, i dont want to go back. ill see what i can do x