This may sound really weird, but..

[Bath]

This is a weird situation and idk what to do, but right now in Stage Makeup class we're learning trauma. That's cuts, open wounds, bruises, bullet holes. Today we did open wound and scars.

You have no clue how triggering it was.

We used professional fake blood (that looks/feels/coagulates like real blood), and made them look so real. The feeling of dripping blood that looked so real was just too much.

Then the scars. I made five with liquid latex on my hand, we were only told to make one, but I wanted more.

The ending result was just too much and I started crying and hid it pretty well, except for one girl who saw and I made up some bullshit about family issues.

This is going to go on for about the next 2 or 3 weeks. I meant to make this as a little rant, and to distract myself from cutting right now, but I guess I need advice, too. It's really too much and I'm too fucking sensitive to not care.

[Amyxoxo]

It is so normal to feel like this! Seriously it is.
It is like someone actually sitting there like bleeding in front of you and then your brain will go wondering and then you start to think about what could have done it and all that jazz!
I am sorry but I don't really think that I can actively help but maybe just try and distract yourself and keep thinking about other things. Can you not like get out of the class somehow? But otherwise I am hear if you need to talk :)
Amy :) x

[Love.Hate]

Can you not get out of it in any way?

I would find that triggering too, dont worry. My only advice for this is, you either try to deal with it (which is hard) maybe try not to get so invloved with it? or try to get out of that lesson.. maybe tell your teacher your not good with gore? or that you have personal issues and this is bringing back old memories?

:hug:

[AlmostHomeless]

They shouldn't make it mandatory. You can probably get out of it by telling them that it bothers you or that you can't handle it. Stuff like that. I'm sure they would understand without needing extra explanation.

[Dimitri]

Please, talk to your teacher, see if you can do an alternate assigment, I would hope that your teacher wouldn't be a heartless bitch but please try.

Nothing is going to be done unless you advocate for yourself.

[Bath]

I'll try and explain it to Mr.Bonnet, and just ask if I can do something else... I'm just mostly afraid of it being embarrassing, though. And awkward.

[secretly_secret]

I'm so sorry Bethany. That is so hard.

[StrawberryCyanide]

No one can force you to go to these classes, and no it's not wierd at all, I get triggered by things like this also. I really relate to your worrying about embarrasement, but at the end f the day you're self harm is far more importand than feeling a little awkward!
Good luck with this honey and I hope you find a solution!! Chin up ^_^ x

[HandheldOutlaw]

That's not strange at all. I cannot do Halloween makeup for my cousins beyond face paint. I can't use fake blood whatsoever without being really triggered.
As the others were saying, ask for an alternate assignment, or explain to your teacher.
Maybe try to propose the alternate assignment yourself, rather than having your teacher make up one. Volunteer to do a research paper on how stage makeup like fake wounds and blood and the like were used in different movies; different possible techniques they could have used.
Whatever you decide, I wish you the best. (:
xLauren
Take care.

[Amaryllis]

That sounds terrible. It must be terribly triggering. Kudos to you for holding up. Do any of your teachers know. I don't agree so much with the other users that you should quit. In life, you will find yourself in triggering situations such as this. We just gonna learn to tough it out and keep it from affecting our lives and holding us back. We are not our scars, cuts or mental illness. You're you and self-harm doesn't define you. It isn't who you are.

There is more to life than self-harm. I think you should keep going. It does sound like fun. You're learning something new and making new friends! With enough time, I believe you can learn to think of it as what it is, just make-up. We need to move on with our lives and do what we love. Don't let anything hold you back.

Love,
Faith and Trust