Did you know?

[ShadowGirl]

When you had an eating disorder, did you know you had developed it? I've heard of people who didn't think anything was wrong, and I've known others who knew they had an ED. What about you?

[stories]

I've known it's here. At first I was so caught up in that I didn't notice much so I would be able to deny it. Now, I know I have one and accept it. I have EDNOS (undiagnosed) and one of my brothers once told me I was anorexic. (He said that before he understood eating disorders, so I didn't take it too harshly). I denied that one. I told him, I am not there, yet... I am not underweight and my menstrual cycles are fine. I don't want to go there really either. But I knew. I even researched eating disorders to make sure.

[Amaryllis]

There's no one reason why. Starving isn't just about thinking you're ugly and wanting to be skinny. Starvation goes against all your body's natural survival instincts, to starve, you would need a large amount of anxiety, pain and willpower. There is always something deeper.

I developed an eating disorder during the time when my boyfriend and I were falling apart. Genetics play a part as well, my half sister suffered from anorexia. I suffered/still am suffering from sexual/child abuse. My eating disorder was a way to come, anyway, I have OCD. And I wanted to be the best. Skinnier. Skinniest.

Eating disorders result from a number of reasons. We just gonna know why and learn to cope with that. Or, like me, drop too far, get hospitalised, lose your life, mind, hair and body, kill a couple billion brain and skin cells, live everyday of your life in pain, let your body eat itself and your organs shut down.

Sure, why not go for the latter? Really, don't wait till your eating disorder goes out of control, don't go as far as I did. Search for help and if help doesn't work, search for more help. They're much easier to treat when they aren't so bad.

[Bath]

I just didn't know it had a name. I was 12 when it really got serious, and I knew it wasn't normal, and that some other girls did it. I just didn't know it was called something, until I was around 13 or 14.

[unknownuser]

I honestly did not think anything was wrong with me.
It took a long time for myself to realize that.

[BrokenButterflies]

I knew/know.