Simply over it

[Froath]

Hello,

I haven't really been posting much around these neck of the woods, but I need help, and I feel as if you guys are a great support network.

I feel a bit stupid doing this, because I wouldn't really say my problem is a big deal. But, at the moment I feel like no one understands me, and I feel alone, I feel hopeless and useless and I have no motivation to do anything at all. This has pretty much started last month and it has been on and off. There are times where I feel like I'm on top of the world, and then there are times where I feel like there is no use in trying to do anything.

There are some days which are better than others, and some days where I feel like crap. At the moment I have these two friends who I've only known well for a few months, but I have gotten along with them really well, and we can talk about anything. But lately, I feel like a burden on them and I don't want to drag them down into my own messed up shit which I face every day, that and I feel like I'm wasting their time and they don't care for some reason.

No one really knows what I'm feeling right now, and I am suffering in silence at the moment, even though I know I shouldn't. But for some reason, I just feel that no one cares about me. One of the biggest things on my mind, is that I feel like I have no future. I want to pursue a career in music, but I get discouraged by everyone and I don't think I'm good enough to do anything. I don't know how I've coped in the past, but school is starting next week and I wont even have enough motivation go get out of bed.

I just want this pain and 'emptiness' to go away, I've had enough and I know I am better than that but I just can't stop being negative and thinking like it.

What should I do?

[Dimitri]

I think you need to talk to your parents, if you are able too. When you get to school I would also suggest that you talk to your school counselor, they are tained for these sort of things.

Why is it that you think your frineds do not care, have they told you this? If they have then I would not really consider them as friends. I think you need to do soem more with music, you want to go into music, am i correct? I would then assume that music brings you happiness, play the piano, sing, whatever it is that you dow ith music, just feel better. Take some time and do what it is that makes you happy, when you are happy you can think much clearer.

[Froath]

Thanks Rob, It's not that my friends dont care but i feel like I'm wasting their time. I don't think my parents would understand to be honest, thats why I don't really want to go up to them.