MS (Multiple Sclerosis)

[MoA117]

My Dad has M.S.... He used to work at a place called CBI, He was a foreman and built water towers. He was fine, worked Monday-Friday, worked out of town, all around the U.S.A. But now he can't go out. He can bearly walk. He uses a walker. Sometimes a wheel chair, I have mild depression and he knows I do. He trys to show me that he can do things..But he can't..My mom doesn't understand, I don't really think she knows I have depression. She always wants me to help my dad down the steps, out to his truck(He can bearly drive, that's one of the things he trys to show to me that he can do, but he cant.)But I don't want to. I don't want to see him fall. I don't want to see him like this. He used to be fine, when I was little.. He always talks to me about how we played all the time when I was little...How he'd kick a big kick ball up in the air and I'd try to catch it..And how I thought he was the strongest guy on the Earth because he could kick it so high. I've told him I don't remember something he told me and he looked depressed..So now I tell him that I remember things and it seems to cheer him up... He always wants me to take rides with him... I can't drive yet because I'm only 13.. I never want to go with him because I'm afraid he'll wreck.. He works on his computer now, for CBI still.. He used to make 50-90$ an hour but now he's making around 10-20$..We're losing our house and everything else..I ask my parents for something and the response is ALWAYS "Devon, We don't have enough money, I'm sorry" I'm tired of life. I don't want to kill myself, I don't want to die.. I don't know whats wrong with me..

[thesphinx]

im sorry about your dad must be tough going through that.
i probably can't amagine how difficult it is for you,
I am dealing with major depression disorder.
and i know what it feels like to be depressed its the worst thing in the world.
I have a friend whose dad has MS and i can see that its difficult for him.
but i just try to be the best friend i can be to him as he's going through it.
as hard as it is try to spend as much time with him as you can. theres really not that much i can say because i am not in your situation but i will always be here to talk and i will help you with whatever your going through pm me anytime.
i just lost my grandfather.
he had alzeimers and in a sence i know what it feels like to watch someone slowly die.
its horrible. but i know in my heart the my grandfather had to go through that for a reason,
because things dont just happen for no reason theres always a reason.
I wish you the best of luck :)
and remember to hug and kiss you dad often

[*lynn*]

it sounds like you are resenting everything going on around you. (the situations you are placed in, the problems your dad has, having to help out, etc). and that is totally normal because you are a kid and you should be out having fun and hanging out with your friends doing whatever you like to do to have fun. and that sucks that you can't really do that, it really does. and it sucks that you don't have the finances to do things or have things that you want too.

but i think your dad sees that you are depressed (like you said) and he is trying to make you feel better. your situation sucks. but you have to try and make the best of it. i know that sounds stupid and something you probably don't want to hear. but it's true.

try to maybe play board games with your dad, so he and you can both have fun. think of things that you guys can do together that you both would enjoy. just try and make things as fun as possible and maybe things won't be as tough.

and if things get so bad see if you can't talk to a school counselor or another trusted adult. talking about things help. try it out.

good luck with things.