aw sh!t

[morbidmonkey]

i had a huge mother fcking relapse. i go deeper everytime i cut. now i dont even try not to cut. happiness just never seems to say -.- oh well =/

[Ambrosia]

You have to want happiness to stay. I know that you probably "try" but, in all honesty, it's usually the case no matter how hard we claim we try. Happiness is possible. It's not easy, and it's painful to reach, but it is there.

And as for that relapse of yours, it's okay. It happens to all of us. Some people accidentally fall back into it, others choose to. It's all part of recovery. One day you will decide that you positively do not want self-harm in your life. That will be the day that a relapse will seem too far away. And until then, it's okay. We have all been through it. You're not alone there, believe me.

Please try to not cut yourself too deeply. I know what it's like to want to cut deeper and deeper and -deeper- but you have to resist. Remind yourself what is at stake if you take it too far. Relocate your cutting to someplace where cutting deep is hard to do, and start over. Try to have a go at being cutless again.

And good luck (:

[AvengedHorizon]

I just had a relapse too -_-
but i have absolutely no idea why I did it
It just did

[xdancing_for_rainx]

I'm sorry to hear about your relapse :/ It's difficult to pick yourself back up after something like that. But I'm sure happiness will come to stay eventually. Or, at least stay for a good amount of time. Relapse is a normal part of recovering. We all will fall, but you've just got to try again. There's always another chance.

Can you think of anything to distract yourself with when you're triggered? Just like something constructive that can sorta replace the cutting. Or maybe making a list of reasons not to cut could help. That could be something to refer to when you have urges to hurt yourself, and maybe help to prevent it.

I hope you're doing ok, and that the cuts aren't getting dangerously deep or anything :/ Please keep safe. Leave a message if you need. :hug: