Finding it hard

[ForeverBlue]

to keep eating.
While right now I am at a healthy weight and working with my therapist,
I feel the urge to relapse.
I hate my body and myself. Everyone talks about how how much better I look, and what a pretty girl i am.
But i don't want to be healthy, i want to go back to the hospital where i stayed for so many months.
It was safe and lovely there. And I met other people, like me.
I am looking for advice....
please help!

[BillyWitchDoctor.com]

alright, take no offense to this, but this doesnt sound right....like not natural. "But i dont want to be healthy"?? WHY NOT. if ur healthy u can live a normal, happy life. i dont think people in the hospital would take it too well if u decided to screw things up and come back. i know i wouldnt want to talk to you, you got out and u apparently started being healthy, people even commented on how nice you looked, thats what i'd want if i were stuck in a bed, id consider u ignorant to want to come back and be like this, all the people in the hospital want to get better and live a healthy happy life, they dont WANT to be there.
You should really keep up what ur doing, not wanting to be healthy is going to ruin ur life, it really is. it could be something as simple as not eating enough, but once u survive that, not wanting to be healthy will encourage u to do more worse things after u succeeded in not eating enough. stay healthy,live long, stay happy

[*lynn*]

i think you need to keep eating maybe. hospitals may make you feel safe but they aren't really a long term solution if you don't need it. try telling your therapist how you feel like stopping your eating and talk it out with her. she is the best person to help you with your situation.

good luck.