Feel tempted to commit suicide...

[Lethe]

I'm honestly wishing there was a bottle (or two) of pills or a gun or a rope in my house so I could commit suicide. Right now.

Honestly, my life is absolutely pointless and worthless, to the extreme. I spent two hours trying to find clothes at the store and found none. My body is just so...disgusting. Ugly. Fat. I can't wear clothes with no sleeves (that's for damn sure) or clothes that don't form-fit in some way, because if it flows even a little bit I look like a fat hog. And my face. Ugh. How ugly can a person get? I look terrible. It looks as if I'm a male wearing makeup. Disgusting. Absolutely disgusting. I barely look female, especially with my fucking large, wide shoulders, limp, small, hanging breasts that look like deflated water balloons, short, fat, thick legs and little to no curves.

Plus it's just...ugh. I'm 17, I'm single, I've never dated before. I'm a virgin. How pathetic is that? I can't hold the attention of a boy at all, in any case. I'm one of the only (and this is not an exaggeration) girls at my school of 3000+ students without a boyfriend. And you know what? It's probably for the best. I embarrass myself just being at school, I can't imagine how a boy'd feel even just being around me. It must be embarrassing and humiliating to talk to me. I shouldn't reproduce, even if I want to marry and have a family. My children may turn out to look like me.

And my weight. I'm 147lbs and I look like I weigh 160+. No matter how much weight I lose I'll always look fat and huge. Even being anorexic I'd probably look gigantic, because I was born like a male with big bones and wide shoulders.

Anyone have a gun?

[Peace God]

I'm 17, I'm single, I've never dated before. I'm a virgin. How pathetic is that?
:whoops:

[Lethe]

What...?

[Peace God]

Why is that pathetic?

[Lethe]

It's pathetic because I'm female and I haven't dated yet. And I'm a virgin. But honestly, I don't deserve dating or losing my virginity. I mean ew. I don't think anyone would sleep with me anyways, my body is just...ew.

[Peace God]

It's pathetic because I'm female and I haven't dated yet. And I'm a virgin.
That's not a very nice thing to say. Virgins aren't pathetic.
And are females supposed to lose their virginity earlier than guys? That's kind of sexist.

[Lethe]

I'm not saying virgins are pathetic. I'm saying I'm pathetic because I'm a virgin.

I never said anything about other girls. I'm speaking about myself. It's pathetic that as a female I've never dated or had sex. That's my personal opinion. Most girls have already dated at least once by my age, and I haven't. I haven't had a guy that has liked me either. Throughout my entire life I've never had a boy who had a crush on me.

[Fushigi]

i personally believe that you should love yourself before finding someone that will love you. And i'm pretty sure that the right guy will come into your life if you will learn to love yourself, instead of putting yourself down because of your appearance why don't u make an effort to make yourself better and be more confident. believe in yourself because it’s not only physical beauty that’s important but also inner beauty. Like what the Little Prince said, "What is essential is invisible to the naked eye." And I believe that character and personality are more important than physical beauty.".. i can't say that "it's okay" or something coz i don't know how you feel i don't know what problems your going through.. but always believe that "The standard of beauty is not definite, we define it" and as whitney houston says "Learning to love yourself, it is the greatest love of all" :)

[Lethe]

It doesn't seem like guys are willing to see what's inside. It seems as if they only want what's on the outside, and since my outside is ugly and unfeminine I don't ever get male attention. Loving myself seems pointless because it's not going to attract guys.

[Peace God]

I'm not saying virgins are pathetic. I'm saying I'm pathetic because I'm a virgin.
that makes no sense at all to me but, lol ok

[Lethe]

It's a personal statement. I'm pathetic because I'm a virgin; that's how I see myself. I'm not saying all virgins are pathetic. Please don't ask me to explain...this is the best I can do.

[Fushigi]

It doesn't seem like guys are willing to see what's inside. It seems as if they only want what's on the outside, and since my outside is ugly and unfeminine I don't ever get male attention. Loving myself seems pointless because it's not going to attract guys.

hmm, if you can't love yourself how can someone learn to love you?? if your fat then try to lose some weight , at least make an effort to make yourself better. It's like having a goal if you are eager to achieve that goal work for it, if you fail don't just give up, just keep on trying i'm sure it will be all worth it. Putting yourself down wont attract guys either..

[Lethe]

Every time I hear that quote I seethe inside. It's such an untrue statement. What man really cares if I like myself? Men don't want ugly, fat girls. So even if I did feel "good" about who I am, I still wouldn't attract a man. I doubt I could attract a blind man.

I am trying to lose weight. I've gone fron 156lbs to 147lbs since July. May be a pitiful amount, but at least it's something. Dieting takes forever.

[Fushigi]

Every time I hear that quote I seethe inside. It's such an untrue statement. What man really cares if I like myself? Men don't want ugly, fat girls. So even if I did feel "good" about who I am, I still wouldn't attract a man. I doubt I could attract a blind man.

I am trying to lose weight. I've gone fron 156lbs to 147lbs since July. May be a pitiful amount, but at least it's something. Dieting takes forever.


hmmm , most of men do look at the physical appearance of women, but not all.
yeah it's good that you are trying. trying is better than doing nothing.. :)

[Lethe]

Yes, most men only want hot/pretty girls. What chance do I have? My face is masculine and unattractive, and my body...it's not even worth mentioning. It's just not pleasant. At all. I might as well forget about dating, marrying and having children right? That's what I want in life, so if I can't have it I might as well kill myself.

[Fushigi]

Yes, most men only want hot/pretty girls. What chance do I have? My face is masculine and unattractive, and my body...it's not even worth mentioning. It's just not pleasant. At all. I might as well forget about dating, marrying and having children right? That's what I want in life, so if I can't have it I might as well kill myself.

well there is a chance, if you will work out or something, i want to ask you are you watching the biggest loser?? if you do, you can see them giving all their best to lose some weight because they all have goals which is to feel more confident by losing their excess weight. I'm not a plus sized person but when i'm watching it, i feel so inspired on how they are eager to achieve what they want , and mind you that they are doing it not for the other's but for themselves. Killing yourself won't solved your problems but being confident with yourself will do :). you are still young and life has more to offer and live life to the fullest.

[Lethe]

Trust me, I'm only going to get uglier as I age. What chance will I ever have of dating? If I lose weight, I'll still be ugly. No matter how much makeup I put on or what surgery I have. What point is there in living if I'm too ugly/fat/overall unfeminine to actually attract a man and I won't be able to date/marry and raise a family like I want?

[Fushigi]

Trust me, I'm only going to get uglier as I age. What chance will I ever have of dating? If I lose weight, I'll still be ugly. No matter how much makeup I put on or what surgery I have. What point is there in living if I'm too ugly/fat/overall unfeminine to actually attract a man and I won't be able to date/marry and raise a family like I want?

you are still young, and don't think of negative things. I don't know what to say anymore if you've already set your mind like that. All i can say is be confident , do something that will make you feel better.

[Amaryllis]

I'm gonna put this as nicely as I possibly can.

1. Virgins aren't pathetic. Many people are virgins.

2. You're not flocked by men because you're a walking black hole. Nobody liked me when I was skinny because I was a walking ball of self-hate, angst and depression. I hated myself so everyone else hated me. Nobody wants to be around someone who puts themselves down all the time. They don't want to be depressed as well. They want smiles and laughs. Don't tell me this is impossible because it isn't and I know you can do it. Life isn't easy. Being happy and cheerful isn't easy. You just gotta push on, smile even if you don't want to, try to talk even if you don't want to. Heck, I'm sure I annoy some people sometimes with my extreme bubbliness and constant babbling. But with time and effort, they will like you.

3. Men are not the only people in this world. What happened to friends? We've been trying so hard to be here for you but you brush us off. We've spent hours replying to the things you say, hell, I haven't given up on you! My best friend is a girl and she's the light of my life. I'm not exaggerating. She knows about none of my "problems" but she makes me want to live. She's the best thing that's ever happened to me. You'll find a friend like that. I know she beats any guy, any day.

Men don't want ugly, fat girls.
My school teacher is obese, triple your size(I'm actually not kidding) and she married the hottest teacher in our school. Blonde, buff and hot as.


I've gone fron 156lbs to 147lbs since July. May be a pitiful amount, but at least it's something. Dieting takes forever.
You gonna diet for the rest of your life?

It doesn't seem like guys are willing to see what's inside.
Wrrrooonnnggg. That's not true, I know guys who are complete sweethearts. A lot of the guys I've met on VT are a-ma-zing and they're kind, smart, funny, sweet and understanding. They may not think I'm pretty once they see me but I know they'll still talk to me or like me or whatever it is. Not all men are shallow bastards. I'm trying to change my view of men, it's hard after my father, I think every man I see's gonna rape me but I know that's not true.

Loving myself seems pointless because it's not going to attract guys.
Uh... Wut? How about loving yourself because it'll make your life a lot better? Do you really want to wake up hating yourself everyday? Love yourself for you! Do it because you deserve it. Do it because it'll make your life a lot better. Do it because it'll make you a better person. Do it because it is when you accept yourself that you will stop making these threads, thinking this way and actually communicating with someone else! It is then that people will stop getting annoyed, look pass your god-I-hate-my-life-and-myself and see you for the beautiful girl I know you are.


I never said anything about other girls. I'm speaking about myself. It's pathetic that as a female I've never dated or had sex.
Contradictory much? You're not the only female in the world and what do you mean "as a female"? So what if you haven't dated or kissed or had sex? Is it a requirement for females? If you have a vagina, you're a female! Who cares what you do with it!

Throughout my entire life I've never had a boy who had a crush on me.
I've said this before, I'll say it again. Girls girls girls. Men don't make up the entire human race!

If I lose weight, I'll still be ugly.
So why are you losing weight?

[IcarusLives]

Edit: Disregard this post entirely.

[abdheuuuchjc]

Listen I'm fourteen never kissed or even been on a date in my life. Life is depressing sonetimes no doubting that but just cause ur not in a relationship doesn't mean ur pathetic at all. Do u hav any talents of some sort? I play the drums and when I'm angry bout something when I get home I bang the he'll out of them. U just need to find a stress reliever and keep ur hopes up

[when-pigs-fly]

Sometimes I think i'm the ugliest girl at school and no one would like me. I like being by myself and sometimes I don't. I like to be quiet and sometimes I like to be loud. I always thought my life would suck and there is no point of living BUT at school I would try to think of all the positive things in life. Like:My dream job, finding love (no matter how long it takes), and enjoying life. I wanted to ride all the rides at the Stratosphere lol. And trust me, I am bigger then you but I try to lose weight but never could. So I say "F**k all those skinny bi***es. I love myself for who I am" Also I always do embarrassing stuff but I just shrug it off like nothing happend lol. But please, don't kill yourself. Just me thinking of you dead makes me want to cry. I love you. (as a friend)

[Ambrosia]

I'm going to say this once, and only once:

So many people would kill to look like you;
To have your body.

You want to know something? You don't need to date at your age. It only causes more problems. A huge percent of women (as gorgeous as you are) do not date until College, if not even after. You have no reason to lose your virginity at such a young age, either, it only brings complications too.

There is nothing wrong with you, meaning that you are not disformed, you are not fat, you are not ugly. Guys do not date you because your beauty is intimidating. Holy hell, lady. I'm serious.

You're life is precious. You will get only more and more gorgeous as the years go on. Your opinion on yourself? Yeah, it doesn't matter. Sounds rude, but it's true. Since you think so lowly of yourself I am going to tell you now: How you're viewing yourself at this time does NOT matter. Because everyone else knows better. We see the difference. We actually see you. You? You see....Someone else. Not sure who, but it isn't you. You need to stay alive just because you're going to be one of the people who repopulates this world after 2012 with gorgeous children.

Beauty is what you make of it. If you are too busy convincing yourself that you are ugly, how are you supposed to emphasis how beautiful you are? The only thing wrong with you is that you are oblivious to your own greatness. How meaningful your life is. Everything. Slap yourself, look in a mirror, and realize just how much good you are going to do in this world.

We need you, lady. Seriously.

[Funkapotamus]

I'm going to say this once, and only once:

So many people would kill to look like you;
To have your body.

You want to know something? You don't need to date at your age. It only causes more problems. A huge percent of women (as gorgeous as you are) do not date until College, if not even after. You have no reason to lose your virginity at such a young age, either, it only brings complications too.

There is nothing wrong with you, meaning that you are not disformed, you are not fat, you are not ugly. Guys do not date you because your beauty is intimidating. Holy hell, lady. I'm serious.

You're life is precious. You will get only more and more gorgeous as the years go on. Your opinion on yourself? Yeah, it doesn't matter. Sounds rude, but it's true. Since you think so lowly of yourself I am going to tell you now: How you're viewing yourself at this time does NOT matter. Because everyone else knows better. We see the difference. We actually see you. You? You see....Someone else. Not sure who, but it isn't you. You need to stay alive just because you're going to be one of the people who repopulates this world after 2012 with gorgeous children.

Beauty is what you make of it. If you are too busy convincing yourself that you are ugly, how are you supposed to emphasis how beautiful you are? The only thing wrong with you is that you are oblivious to your own greatness. How meaningful your life is. Everything. Slap yourself, look in a mirror, and realize just how much good you are going to do in this world.

We need you, lady. Seriously.

What she said!