sarah14
September 29th, 2011, 04:07 PM
i know that ive had a lot of trouble when it comes to talking about my "family" and my parents and most of all my sisters. i dont know if im posting this to awnser questions or more to have one awnsered for me...
i just wanted to let all of you who dont know what a divorce feels like.. ur lucky.. its horrible and mean and nasty ... but thats not always the case.... for me , it was like a bomb going off, 7 years of lies and hatered and guilt and most of all ... the reality hitting you when u find out why... its crazy...
my life hasnt gotten better.. hasnt even started too yet .. its only been a year but.. im finding out .. that its ok to talk and cry and let people know how you feel .. for some of you , you may think im horrible and mean for saying this stuff... but its reality... i had to get over it... this is the way its gonna be and i cant do a thing about... it sucks.. and most likly things will never be the same... some of your moms or dads will get married or find someone new.. or just keep on loving you....
for me i dont want my parents to get remarried or date.. i cant explain it but ... i feel like i dont want them to stop loving me ... and it feels as if they date or get remarried. they will....
if you ever want to talk or anything plz contact me ... it might not seem helpful at the moment but just think about it.. i dont like going to therepy cuz i feel like im a specimine in there lab ... not a person ... i know how you feel... or ill at least try to be in ur shoes....
i just wanted to let all of you who dont know what a divorce feels like.. ur lucky.. its horrible and mean and nasty ... but thats not always the case.... for me , it was like a bomb going off, 7 years of lies and hatered and guilt and most of all ... the reality hitting you when u find out why... its crazy...
my life hasnt gotten better.. hasnt even started too yet .. its only been a year but.. im finding out .. that its ok to talk and cry and let people know how you feel .. for some of you , you may think im horrible and mean for saying this stuff... but its reality... i had to get over it... this is the way its gonna be and i cant do a thing about... it sucks.. and most likly things will never be the same... some of your moms or dads will get married or find someone new.. or just keep on loving you....
for me i dont want my parents to get remarried or date.. i cant explain it but ... i feel like i dont want them to stop loving me ... and it feels as if they date or get remarried. they will....
if you ever want to talk or anything plz contact me ... it might not seem helpful at the moment but just think about it.. i dont like going to therepy cuz i feel like im a specimine in there lab ... not a person ... i know how you feel... or ill at least try to be in ur shoes....