Loosing hope

[Keats]

I'm honestly loosing all hope to go on, the only thing really keeping me half sane is my friend.
Everything else seems to be falling around me.
i'm on 5 days no cutting, which i have no idea how, but all i can think about is it.
And i'm worried that i'm going to something much worse.
it's been playing on my mind for weeks and i don't know how i can cope much further.
i've even planned where, written letters and stuff.
help me.

[AvengedHorizon]

you're not alone, We're here for you <3 you should be proud of not cutting for 5 days, and take it one day at a time and build it back up again, we're all here for you, and so is your friend

[ShatteredGlass]

The pain a suicide causes is nearly unbearable. I know. If you ever had a death in your family think about how you felt then. You can just think about you here. I letter will never be enough to explain. And you'll cut everyone who has ever cared about you deeper than you ever have yourself. It's a hurt that never really heals, there's always a sore spot. As long as you're living there is hope and there is still a chance as soon as you take your life there's no more hope, thats the only time its gone. Moreover you rob all of your loved ones and friends of time, of you, and of answers that you won't be able to answer. There was a man who attempted suicide by jumping off the Golden Gate bridge, well he lived, a parapalegic, but he lived. In an interview when he was asked if he regretted it he told the interviewer "It was the worst mistake of my life, as I was falling through the air I realized every problem I had was fixable". A mother should never out live her child and a friend should never lose a friend to death. We're here for other people, not ourselves. You don't have the right to do it. Because you are loved. And there is hope.

[Keats]

thank you, both of you.
but i don't know how i can deal with this, my problems aren't fixable and i'm not loved.
i don't want this anymore, i'm done. i'm out.

[ryantombs]

if you belive it or not the people on here all love you... everyone cares for you deeply
hell i love you... your probably an amazing person who is loved by many... you just dont realize it/ dont want to realize it... i know i am like that i know i have many people who are here for me from this forum to my actual friends in real life... theres plenty i can talk to about my SH but i wont cause im afraid but they always tell me they are here for me when ever i went through a terrible terrible break up... i saw my true friends they were there and i dont want to believe they are but trust me they are there and problems are always fixable PM or post here one problem you cannot fix just one and we will talk it over on how to fix it
and sorry for the randomness of it its hard to explain but trust me many people love you and i can speak truthfully that everyone on this forum loves you and is worrying about you PM me please

[abdheuuuchjc]

thank you, both of you.
but i don't know how i can deal with this, my problems aren't fixable and i'm not loved.
i don't want this anymore, i'm done. i'm out.

Dude maybe u should talk to a shrink. Idk but I understand ur pain. Plz dude dont kill itself. Plz feel free to message me anytime. I know what pain is I've tried suicide five times. If u ever want to talk I'm here