LoveMe_HateMe
September 28th, 2011, 03:47 AM
I feel like I'm loosing it. I'm not in control any more. 110 new cuts on my leg. Not deep ones. It's the most I've ever done in one go. Will it stop me? No it wont. I know for a fact that I'll be more by tonight.
I just can't handle anything, not any more. I'm just so run down. I guess I need help. But every time I reach out and try to ask for help, no one is there that listens. (Part from girlfriend,she tries to help) Apart from that, it just seems to fall onto deaf ears.
I don't know. I'm just so tired. Going to curl up in bed and watch tv... Maybe, or read, or do work. I don't know.
What I do know for certain is that I will be putting that blade to my leg again. At the moment its the only thing that makes me feel.
I just can't handle anything, not any more. I'm just so run down. I guess I need help. But every time I reach out and try to ask for help, no one is there that listens. (Part from girlfriend,she tries to help) Apart from that, it just seems to fall onto deaf ears.
I don't know. I'm just so tired. Going to curl up in bed and watch tv... Maybe, or read, or do work. I don't know.
What I do know for certain is that I will be putting that blade to my leg again. At the moment its the only thing that makes me feel.