. . . so lost

[rissa-_-]

okay so i just got home from my cross country meet. i did an okay job. but at the end of it i just kept saying bad things about myself. for example nobody cares, nobody likes you, go cut yourself, just go kill yourself. i was even crying. even when the race was over i ran up to my mom and huged her and cried in her shoulders. only three people came up to me and asked what's wrong- there's 50 on the team. and another reason is i miss my dad. seven months is a long time :/
everyone keeps saying how good of a job i've done and i'm doing such a louzy job. all of this mad-talk i'm saying about myself won't get me anywhere! ugggghhhhhhhhh i just needed to get this out.

[sarah newman]

I think you should talkk to a counsellor or your gp about this.
Maybe people didn't wanna bother you because they could see your upset and wanted to give you space.
You shouldn't say bad things about yourself, this gets both your confidence and self esteem down.
I really recommend you talking to someone about it. Maybe even a close friend or trusted adult.
Hope this helps! Pm me anytime. Good luck!