I'm not to sure, compared to others, i know im only a minor worry

[AvengedHorizon]

I'm not to sure, compared to others, i know im only a minor worry, if a worry at all, but these past few days i've been scratching into my skin, not quite making it bleed, but certainly scoring the skin. I'll be honest, there has been a lot of crap going on with me lately, who here doesnt have that? but i started using scissors today, the pain of scaring myself takes away the other, emotional, pain, it feels better already. We have no razor blades, my family don't use them and keep them out of the house when they're not needed, just in case there's a cutter.

It started with deliberately knocking into objects and slamming my palms onto desks harder than necessary, then scratching, and now scoring my skin with the scissors. I just want someone to... read this, respond whatever.

[FullyAlive]

Ok, stop now. You don't have the addiction yet, it's only been a recent development. You'll get urges but they'll soon go, as long as you resist. Find something more productive rip something be it paper or cloth etc. Exercise, go on a run, dance, anything.

And then talk to someone be it your guidance counsellor at school, or parents, or a trusted teacher or even your GP. Tell someone about the feelings your having, and get some advice and help before it's too late. Take control now before you end up with an addiction, scars and much worse off. It's not too late to fix this, you'll be ok.

:hug:

[AvengedHorizon]

i know, it's what im trying to do, im ashamed, and im scared, i dont want this to carry on, its hard to resist them, i know im not far gone, thankyou for your advice and time i really appreciate it. its hard to resist, but its why im here... and thanks again

[sarahtheweber]

Just know we're here for you hun

[AvengedHorizon]

I know, thankyou :) it means so much, thankyou

[sarahtheweber]

And if you ever need help or someone to talk to, just message me, email me, whatever you need to do.

[NobodysCupOf Tea]

stop while you can. thats the most important advice you'll ever get. just dont allow yourself to give into it, i know i cant stop you but if youre even considering it go to this link:

http://therazorbladetakesitallaway.tumblr.com/ifyourthinkingaboutcutting

its my biggest regret that i took it that step further, dont let it happen to yourself, please. *hugs*

[Byakuya]

aww hey =/,it brakes my heart to hear this..i was very depressed when i was 13-17..i use to take lots of pills,and beat my self up..literally punch myself lol..i know exactly how u must feel,like nothing matters..im still depressed to this day,i just dont hurt my self anymore because i realized it dont make things better and it dont change anything..plz try not 2 feel so bad =),if u wanna talk 2 me about anything that bothers u,u can =)..if i told u somethings about me and how i grew up,u would feel a lil better..i had it pretty bad

[AvengedHorizon]

sarahtheweber: yes, i will, thankyou
nobodyscupoftea: thankyou for the link, and i.. i really cant promise anything, but i will try
Byakuya: thankyou :) and thankyou for being so honest and open