My hearts about to explode

[FearsomeEnder]

I fucked up worse then before the thoughts of suicide are clogging my brain and arent letting me think strait... its seriously a problem i might fucking do it all this shit i have to worry about in school... ill these secrets i have this is the only place i can let them out without having to worry about my "reputation" whatever reputation i have left except for being the goth stoner kid it fucking sucks ive smoked ONCE why do people care so much to bash my image and make ME seem like the asshole why do I have to be the one with a broken heart why do i have to bleed and suffer this pain why do I have to worry about this Why do I have to do anything!? maybe the answer lies in god or maybe its just a figment of my imagination i swear the world i know is crumbling around me and im sitting in this black void that we call life i want to die... this is my deathnote... but my death will not be soon

[sarah newman]

Don't commit suicide. It's the easy way out.
Talk to a counsellor before it's to late.
Yes, people shouldn't see you as these things, but hey, Lifes a bitch.
I know it is hard for you but I think you should talk about it to a professional as this can help. I didnt think it would for me but I gave it a couple of sessions and I felt much better.
Hope this helps! Pm me whenever you like, goodluck with what you decide!

[FearsomeEnder]

Don't commit suicide. It's the easy way out.
Talk to a counsellor before it's to late.
Yes, people shouldn't see you as these things, but hey, Lifes a bitch.
I know it is hard for you but I think you should talk about it to a professional as this can help. I didnt think it would for me but I gave it a couple of sessions and I felt much better.
Hope this helps! Pm me whenever you like, goodluck with what you decide!

no... as i said many times before(read my "black and white war" post) suicide in my eyes is the pussy way out. this post was me ranting like many others i do have problems yes but there minute teenager bs problems and suicide is not an option in my life ive ruled it out and it will NEVER(most likely) come i dont need a counselor i have my own, myself, i usually go through short bursts of emotional fits then post, say, act out, something that will hurt me this was a rant to get it all out after this i felt amazing the rest of the night it was great! i still feel good i think ima go outside and skateboard! X3