This stress is killing me and I'm going to snap!!

[ZzKingz]

I feel like I'm being a baby about this, but I'm going to spit out a bunch of stress anyway

Last year was so easy, I got straight As and i even smoked pot out of boredom (this post is not about drugs). I was taking honors geography, design, tech, orchestra, honors geometry, junior-level chemistry, and regular english. This is as a freshman in HS. I had three off periods every tuesday and thursday.

This year, I'm in two honors classes (Algebra 2 and english), 2 AP classes (US History and Chemistry) and spanish and orchestra on top of that. AP US History is extremely demanding, as anyone who has taken it would know. Way too much reading! I have ADHD and it is very difficult to get reading done at times. I am more than a chapter behind in that class, and tomorrow I'm going to walk into class with nothing but ADHD and "camping" as an excuse.

I haven't even started on my chemistry, english, spanish, or algebra homework. about an hour ago, while reading (painfully slowly) a chapter in my AP US History textbook that was due last thursday, I just got overwhelmed and started crying.

I can't do this!! every damn day is the same: racing against all this shit I have to do and only getting half or it done. It's fucking humiliating to walk into Algebra every day with none of my homework done. Every time I hand in an incomplete homework assignment to my English teacher I feel like I'm basically flipping her off by handing in incomplete crap like that. Every day I feel like the stupid kid in AP US History who can't pull his act together. While Everybody else is taking their reading quiz, I'm two chapters behind and feeling like a total moron.

I flat out don't understand what's going on in AP Chem half the time, and while all the other math geniuses (who actually meet the mathematical requirements to even be in that class) excel, I'm stuck solving the redox reaction, which is a piece of cake for everyone else.

I'm not depressed, and I don't want to be, but I feel like I'm becoming too stressed out and I can tell that I can't handle this. I'm going to snap. Worst of all, it doesn't get any easier. Life just gets harder and that fact makes me miserable. I'm only a sophomore who has the whole world ahead of him, and I can't even read a chapter for AP US History.

My friends are becoming distant and I withdraw from the social interactions that I used to thrive on. I hate to see myself this way. I'm on a bad path. I want to go back to weed because it's so easy to forget when you're high.

I really want to go back to the days of last year when I spent all my time talking to friends and getting high when life just isn't hard enough. I didn't ever have to spend more than an hour a day doing homework, and suddenly I have 3 hours a day now.

I WANT OUT :help:

[AppealToReason]

Don't ever feel bad about ranting. It really does help.
Is there any way you can drop the AP classes? I've been taking AP classes since freshmen year and know how hard they can be to keep up with. If you can't handle them, it's best to drop them rather than let them affect your grades.

[ZzKingz]

I'd seriously love to drop that abusive class, but I think it's too late. My dad would be very disappointed too. There's no way I'd be able to catch up with the regular class after 6 weeks.

[TheMatrix]

What worked for me to get rid of my ADD was to get "EEG Neurofeedback" done.
You should try looking it up, it really does work wonders :)

And, there's no pills or anything, just weekly appointments.

Good luck, man :)

[Nihilus]

Drop the Chem class. It seems that you don't have the requirements. Stick with the APUSH because it's worth it. It is easier to catch up with the normal classes than you think. Take the Chem class next year. Being only a sophomore gives you more than enough time. DON'T give up what makes you who you are; your social life is as important to colleges as your academic life. Drop the AP Chem class and take it when your ready. Good luck, and don't let anyone (even your family) stop you from feeling comfortable about what you can do. Do what you can and next year, or your senior year take the AP chem. Take this time to explore different classes that you may not normally take. You have plenty of time.

[ZzKingz]

The AP Chem class is not my problem actually. Other than the homework dumping on weekends, that class is very manageable, except for when paired with APUSH.