Relapse

[Jupiter13]

Did a count last night 30 cuts all up and down my legs. 20 are still fresh....but the pains starting to go away...and that worries me. When the physical pain is gone the emotional ones comeback....my blade is in it's place...so tempting...I thought drinking would make me feel better... But it made things worse.... Now I feel so close to relapse I can almost smell blood......damn

[FullyAlive]

You need to distract yourself, and distract yourself good.
My new thing is ripping tights, but try anything ripping t-shirts, pillow cases, sheets paper etc. Or try distracting yourself by doing something productive like painting your nails, or drawing etc. Or do something like going on a walk or a run.

And stop drinking I know it's tempting I've done it before drink to pass out. But it's not a good habit to get into replacing one habit with possibly a more dangerous one. :hug: