sarah14
September 24th, 2011, 05:34 AM
this week was suicide prevention week..the school was handing out these little purple ribbions to remind us of a life that was lost last year due to a suicide. earlier this month i had been thinking about how my parents life and my sisters lives with out me here would be so much easier ... after seeing that ribbion i thought that maybe i would ask someone .. if i wasnt here what would there life be like... the only thing she said was that it would be less dramatic... that was the thing that made me feel like maybe i should just leave and kill myself. .. but after seeing that purple ribbion around my wrist .. i thought about it and .. now im still here.. but i had the plans that i was gonna carry all my books home and clean out my locker so my mom wouldnt have to go to the trouble and do it after i was gone.. i cleaned my room and made it look perfect.. i was even gonna find homes for my 2 fish and ginny pig.. i was scraded if i couldnt take care of them .,.. someone else would love them just as much...
it scares me today becuz... i wouldnt be here right now if i didnt have that purple ribbion... it told me that maybe some people would care... but the thought still isnt fully gone yet... its scary as hell...
it scares me today becuz... i wouldnt be here right now if i didnt have that purple ribbion... it told me that maybe some people would care... but the thought still isnt fully gone yet... its scary as hell...