I'm uglier today

[Amaryllis]

I'm uglier today

I hate myself a little more today
I've grown a little uglier

I look even bigger today
I'm now dumber than dumb

I want to cut deeper today
This pain is not enough

I really want to starve today
I waste the food I take

I'm such a fat girl, after all
So ugly and so dumb

I really feel like shit today
And I feel like giving up

I don't deserve to smile or laugh
I try and try and try

But some humans are just hopeless
And I deserve to die