My personal battle

[amscramhick]

Since the 6th grade I have cut. The first time was to see what it felt like (stupid). But shortly after that it became my lifeline. I have qut cutting 4 or 5 times and always went back to it. I don't want to cut, but I feel like there's no way to let out my emotional pain. I struggle with depression and other problems and I used to cry a lot during a period I refused to cut so someone else would stop. Latelytears won't come no matter how sad I am. But I get so frustrated and resort back to the razor. I bleed it out. I don't want to cut. I want to stop. I just dont know how to make that possible for myself. Currently I have not cut in 6 days and I'm trying not to cut again but he urge is growing stronger and stronger..

[ShatteredGlass]

You've made the decision and that's the first step because you have your goal is already attainable! I know where you are because I was cut for about 3 years starting in the 5th grade. The way you heal is not by not cutting but finding out what makes it so hard for you to express the emotions that lead you to cut. Then you have to work on breaking down those barriers. Get other people involved, that helped me, telling people what I was doing and when I was ready that I was going to stop. I'd really like to help you so feel free to send me a private message :)