What is happiness

[Depressed]

I can't Seem to feel happy anymore. My problems are not as extreme as other people's own so I don't even know why I'm depressed anymore. I think it may be a compilation of rejections and failures and me being unable to find love. I told a girl I had liked her on Friday and basically she just turned away and stopped talking to me. I see her in school everyday with another guy and it hurts soooo much, it's indescribable. My best friend died last year I didn't shed a tear but I think even that is piling up with everything else. Nobody around me knows that u am depressed cause I hide it in fear of being ridiculed by friends and even family. I've been carrying around this depression for about 2 years now. I can't look at the future and think of any event that would make me happy. I'm just dragging on with life, I was thinking about starting to cut but I just can't do it, there is a lot of alcohol in my house but I can't do that either. I've reached a stage of serious desperateness in my life I would give up everything I have knowledge material possessions just to find someone to love, I know my parents love me but I need a different kind of love. I'm 16 and every girl I've ever liked has simply just looked the other way. I only experience temporary happiness when I listen to some rock songs cause I can relate to it (e.g. From the Inside-Linkin Park). I'll say this from now I will not get any outside help like a therapist cause I just don't trust anyone in this world enough with my thoughts. I need to solve all my problems by myself in my head. Please if anyone and I mean anyone can help please do I am desperate. I contemplated suicide quite a few times and tried it once when I was about 10 but chickened out. My mind simply won't allow me to kill myself but if I knew I was going to die I wouldn't try to stop it. If you took your time to read this I thank you and ask for your advice.

[Chester]

Perhaps you should try get some friends to hang out with, have fun and talk to. Put yourself in the middle of good pals. This will keep you distracted from thinking about all the sadness. And at the same time, you might find a new best friend or a new love.

I'm not sure what kind of person you are, so perhaps my advice won't be very effective. I mean, if you're the type who doesn't really go out with people, may be you can chat with your online friends or stick with your hobbies. And eventually you'll feel better, then move on.

Right now, I'm feeling depressed over some bunch of things too. And just like you, I can't find happiness in life. I used to spend my time doing activities I love, such as drawing(my hobby) and spending time with my dogs. It worked pretty much well, that is, until I finally lose my desire to keep drawing. But you can try that, who knows it'll work and last long on you.

[Skyhawk]

Hai thar. :)

Ok, I know how you're feeling now, it's hard to live with. Suicide isn't the answer, your instinct told you that when you were 10.

I'm not the best as dealing with depression, but as Chester said, find some friends to hang out with, it'll help. Usually friends help me when I'm having a tough time as usual.

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