ShatteredGlass
September 19th, 2011, 05:08 PM
So I'm studying abroad for a year. I've been cut free for over 2 years now thank God and honestly I never worried about hiding it, I didn't really care. To me I was a cutter so what did it matter if everyone new I was cutter. Well like I said I'm in a new country. In America, at least in my town, if people knew I was cutting or knew that I had cut it was like whatever. The country I'm studying is is statistically 99% Muslim, and self-harm well...draw your own conclusions. Well other day I'm sitting in class in a language I don't understand. The teacher says something and the guy next to me gets her attention and mimes being upset about it. What does he do? He mimes slashing his wrist and the guy next to him follows suit, the class erupted in laughter and the professor chuckled too. I've never been concerned about people finding out in my head I formulate lies and don't know how to get around it. I'm here for a year, it's so freaking hot it just cant wear long sleeves all the time. Its the 1st time in 2 years I've felt ashamed of something that I'm healed from...