I'm scared of relapse.

[SinisterMystery]

I've been really stressed lately, and my 'tool' is pretty much yelling at me to grab it and cut. I am scared, I can't relapse again, I can't. I promised to many people.
I recently told another friend of my cutting and found out that he does it too. I showed him my cuts and he acted as if it was nothing. He's really starting to piss me off and he talks about hurting himself openly. It's fucking triggering me and I'm scared.

None of my distractions are working and I am really frustrated.
I need help.

[OptimusPrime]

*Hugs* Have you tried to do anything that makes your mind go into a different direction instead of cutting? Such as playing games, or something like that. If you can keep your mind away from the cutter, then you should be fine. But if not, I'm here for you whatever you do. And I will always support you and be there for you.

[SinisterMystery]

I went for a walk earlier today and that helped for a little while. I've tried drawing, and reading. I might list things actually. I got a new book where you list things. It might distract me for a while.
Thanks for your suggestions Aaron <3

[OptimusPrime]

I'm always on MSN whenever you wish to distract yourself that way.

[SinisterMystery]

Thanks <3

[Amaryllis]

Honey, not everyone will understand. Some people, often the ones that have been through crap or cut a lot worse, just can't feel your pain. To them, theirs is worse. Maybe it is from a 3rd person's point of view but your pain is your pain. No one can take that from you.

Feel free to leave me a message or add me on Skype if you ever need someone.

[SinisterMystery]

Honey, not everyone will understand. Some people, often the ones that have been through crap or cut a lot worse, just can't feel your pain. To them, theirs is worse. Maybe it is from a 3rd person's point of view but your pain is your pain. No one can take that from you.

Feel free to leave me a message or add me on Skype if you ever need someone.

Thank you, he is kind of selfish in a way anyways. He is always talking about himself and his problems, never really listening to anyone else. I will add you on Skype, I don't get on their often but I'll try to whenever my parents aren't home <3