I'm even dreaming about it :/

[ShadowGirl]

**May be triggering**

Last night I had a dream that someone was beating me and I liked it. The pain felt so good so I didn't fight back. The person left and I had bruises everywhere. Next thing I know I'm walking and I fall on the ground. My knees have blood dripping from them everywhere. I just let it flow all down my legs and over the ground because it looked so pretty. Soon, the bruises faded and the blood dried up and I wished everything would happen all over again. Then I woke up.

I'm such a freak. I can't even sleep without thinking about how much I like pain :/

[xdancing_for_rainx]

I'm sorry you're even starting to dream about self-harm :/ You're not the only one though. I tend to have dreams about hurting myself or whatnot... then sometimes the dreams include being found out, and getting sent to the hospital.
Really not sure that I have much helpful to say... sorry about that. Just wanted to let you know that you're not the only one who has dreams kinda like that. And you're not a freak... Dreams are complex things, and you can't really control what you're going to dream about.

Hope you're doing alright

[ShadowGirl]

It's nice to know that I'm not the only one

[SimSailorNick]

I heard that whatever you were doing or thinking before you slept will most likely be what your dream is all about. Try doing something different before sleeping and it'll probably work. Good luck!

[ShadowGirl]

I heard that whatever you were doing or thinking before you slept will most likely be what your dream is all about. Try doing something different before sleeping and it'll probably work. Good luck!

When I self harm, it's usually before I go to sleep so that makes sense.