HollisterrBboyy
September 16th, 2011, 12:38 AM
Today, this gay guy I've known for quite sometime who has hit on me before asked for my number again via a social site to text me. I was like whatev, and he texted me. Me, who has been almost blowing at the seams on my curiosity towards boys, made it extra difficult to like be straight.. He asked if I ever wanted to do anything with him, and I have been waiting for this moment for like five years, but the problem is I'm scared. The reason is though is because what if he told someone, and it somehow got back to my parents? I would seriously die.
Furthermore, we talked literally from like 11 to like 9:30. He sent me a picture of him shirtless, and I just didn't know what to do or say. It's like I really want to do stuff with him and experience what it is like, but I'm so deathly afraid of my parents finding out that it's almost like I can't? Anyways, I've been texting my other friend and finally, I just told him about my strong attraction towards guys. He is also gay, but has never hit on me or anything; we're kinda closeish.. But, he was completely understanding and told me all these tips on how to make sure my first time with a guy goes well if I ever find someone I want to do stuff with, and it was just amazing. I seriously feel like a "baby" who was just born, and is learning to take it's first steps to it's final goal of eventually running.
I am so thankful I was partially able to come out. Haha, the next step is telling the best best friend, and I hope that goes well.
The purpose of this post was to like let everyone know that I'm moving forward with this, and I seriously am working on finding who I am, not that anyone really cares, but still, and also that if you're struggling with coming out, it really helps just talking to someone you can trust fully. :D
Furthermore, we talked literally from like 11 to like 9:30. He sent me a picture of him shirtless, and I just didn't know what to do or say. It's like I really want to do stuff with him and experience what it is like, but I'm so deathly afraid of my parents finding out that it's almost like I can't? Anyways, I've been texting my other friend and finally, I just told him about my strong attraction towards guys. He is also gay, but has never hit on me or anything; we're kinda closeish.. But, he was completely understanding and told me all these tips on how to make sure my first time with a guy goes well if I ever find someone I want to do stuff with, and it was just amazing. I seriously feel like a "baby" who was just born, and is learning to take it's first steps to it's final goal of eventually running.
I am so thankful I was partially able to come out. Haha, the next step is telling the best best friend, and I hope that goes well.
The purpose of this post was to like let everyone know that I'm moving forward with this, and I seriously am working on finding who I am, not that anyone really cares, but still, and also that if you're struggling with coming out, it really helps just talking to someone you can trust fully. :D