he waited 5 years for me

[ackmedsgirl666]

my bestfriend waited 5 years to have me back and even broke up with his girlfriend of one year to try and get me back but i blew him off. i hate myself so much now that i realize that i just made the biggest mistake ever.. no instead of listening to dylan i listened to cody and chose to stay with him and now hes bringing me down. i think the main reason i didn't take my bestfriend back was because i didnt wanna hurt him like i did 4 years ago when i wound up in a psych ward. im so confused and i know that i am inlove with my bestfriend because today when i tried to kiss him he wouldn't kiss me back like he usually does and he said i can't im taken it broke my heart. why do i keep doing this to myself and turturing myself. i want him and him only and nobody else but perhaps im too late... i need help... any ideas on how i can possibly win his heart back. i know thw feelings are still mutual i just need advice on how to prove to him that i love him and want to be apart of his life... my current bf told me that he wants me to be happy even if its not with him and he will still remain my friend if i choose my bestfriend over him. i don;t like my current relationship cuz we went too fast and i just don;t wanna be with him anymore now that the best part is over(the sex) i have fallen weak to him and pretty much do whatever he says. im trying to give him up slowly but its just not working....
ugh
WHAT DO I DO!!!!!!

[User Deleted]

Confusing but... Have you made it clear to him (with words not gifts) that you truly want to be with him? It doesn't sound like he knows about this and perhaps is he did he would understand your situation better.

[ackmedsgirl666]

Well as of right now my current bf won't let me even speak to him and made me cut him out of my life which i hate.dylan has been my bestfriend for like 5 years and then cody comes alone and changes it all.. Im so confused and i just dunno what to do anymore.... I don't wanna lose dylan but at the same time i dont wanna lose cody either. What do i do??

[User Deleted]

Well, I may be wrong, but if Cody (I have this right I think, its a little confusing) won't let you even talk to Dylan he is being selfish. And if that is the case, he doesn't have the best intentions for you.

There are a few ways I can think of working with this:

Tell Cody you feel he is being selfish by telling you who you can talk to, Dylan has been your friend for years, its not right for someone to say leave them and that should be clear (but not come across rudely)

Choose who you want to be with, and if you feel one of them wants you for you, and one of them wants your body, definitely go with the person who cares for you. Physical relationships never end well.

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Really its not like I am telling you they you can do this or that, those are just what I see as the optimum decisions.

[ackmedsgirl666]

from how im feeling i think that cody just wants me for a baby which i now have growing inside of me... dylan wanted me for me... but its too late now... he left me :(

[User Deleted]

from how im feeling i think that cody just wants me for a baby which i now have growing inside of me... dylan wanted me for me... but its too late now... he left me :(

I'm really sorry to hear. You can PM me if you want to talk about it.

[GoldenSnitch]

Talk to him and ask him out.