Holy crap

[Radfreak]

Dag nabbit. I accidentally submitted an application to a school I don't go to, but I really didn't mean to and now I want to be dead because I'm afraid my parents will kill me anyway. I often have headaches and am constantly worried about even the tiniest things. I am often sad and just want to cry for absolutely no reason at all. Basically, I'm worried about being a failure or someone who makes mistakes a lot. I often try to think of easy, painless ways to die so I can get away from it all and go on to my next life (I'm an Aries perfectionist). Does this mean I'm depressed?

[*lynn*]

do they not approve of the school you applied to or something? the headaches could be from stress, which sounds like you have some, but sometimes our emotions come out as physical problems (i.e. stomach aches, headaches, etc) so it could be that too. why do you worry so much and think that you're a failure? what's going on there? being depressed is like having multiple symptoms for 2 or more weeks. if you haven't already, take the dpression test and see what your score is. if you score pretty high i think you should consider finding someone to talk to (i.e. a close friend in whom you trust, an adult, a counselor, psychologist, etc.), especially if you are fantasizing about suicide. hope everything turns out okay. good luck.

[Radfreak]

Phew, I feel better today. I sent the school an e-mail telling them that my application was a mistake, and I asked them to delete it, so they did. They were really nice about it and didn't ask any useless questions. The only reason my parents would be mad at me would be for sending an application without their consent. I no longer want do die; I love my life. I realize that my fears of failure are just an aspect of my natural perfectionism. I think everything's going to be a-okay after all.:yeah:

[*lynn*]

that's great. i'm glad everything worked out for you! take care!