DifferentTides
September 12th, 2011, 09:04 AM
Well it's been a while I guess since I was last on. I actually thought I was doing good for a while, but like usual something is always missing or incomplete, or I have just simply failed.
Recently I have lost interest in life, that I feel as if i am just existing with no purpose. I feel alone, but I'm surrounded by people who let me down even though I would always come through for them. My best friend is the only one who know my true feelings, but at the same time I feel as if I'm now becoming his burden. I just don't feel loved by any one.
I went to the doctor recently, and for one of my medications (not related to depression) I was going to get they required me to do the becks depression inventory test. when I checked my results I got a score of 26, which means that I apparently have moderate depression, the kind that requires clinical help. I've known for a long while even before I started to SH and more recently tried to suffocate myself.
I want to escape, but there is always another wall. I just want to give up I guess.
What should I do f rom here?
Recently I have lost interest in life, that I feel as if i am just existing with no purpose. I feel alone, but I'm surrounded by people who let me down even though I would always come through for them. My best friend is the only one who know my true feelings, but at the same time I feel as if I'm now becoming his burden. I just don't feel loved by any one.
I went to the doctor recently, and for one of my medications (not related to depression) I was going to get they required me to do the becks depression inventory test. when I checked my results I got a score of 26, which means that I apparently have moderate depression, the kind that requires clinical help. I've known for a long while even before I started to SH and more recently tried to suffocate myself.
I want to escape, but there is always another wall. I just want to give up I guess.
What should I do f rom here?