No return address

[Twistember]

My father and I have had absolutely no contact for 3 years. He, nor I, have made any attempts. Then all of a sudden I get a card from him that says I make his world a better place. How can I make his world a better place if I'm not even in it?

Why now? Why is it, that when things are good, he always has to pop in and ruin everything? I am a million miles away from where I was 5 years ago and I am NOT going back. I almost killed myself because of things he said to me.

Sending me this card was selfish. There was no return address. Since there is no return address, I can't send anything back (not that I want to), thus making me feel guilty. He wants me to feel guilty. He always does this to me!!

I want to shred the card into a zillion little pieces and throw them into the wind to be carried a million miles away from me. But I don't want to get rid of it because a microscopic piece of me says none of the selfish stuff is true. He always does this to me!! I have no idea how to handle this! He is such an asshole!

Everytime I think about this my hands start to shake with anger. What to I do!? UGH!

[Ambrosia]

Calm down and remember he left YOU. Not the other way around! There is nothing to feel guilty about. Just let that anger out. Maybe tell your mother. Something. Because in all honesty, he isn't worth the trouble if he is so insensitive to not contact you ever.

[DerBear]

There is nothing you can do so you just need to keep calim and remember he left you.

Also think you only have one father and to be fair its not that good to keep all the anger you have as it leeds to stress and stress is never too good

[mxiii]

BREATHE IN , BREATHE OUT.
haha.. bettter? okay now, IMHO, u shouldn't be so full of anger towards him. Don't you think its good that he still writes to you? there are people who's parents walk out from them and never heard of again. I think his meaning is he wants you to know he's alive. and his happy to have you. Maybe your mum knows what his address is? try asking her.