Help please... I don't think i can stop me...

[sarahtheweber]

:cry: i can't do this anymore... i've stopped burning for about 2 months, and i can't do it anymore... I've cut more in the past two days than i have in the past three years... it feels so good... i just can't stop...

[Tristin.]

you can. you really can. i know its hard, it is so so hard, but you can beat it. I dont know you, but you are beautiful, amazing and i love you. yes i love you, because i know you can beat this. I know and i believe in you.

If you have the urge to cut, write or draw. do anything that takes your mind off hurting yourselfxxxxxxxxx

[sarahtheweber]

God i wish i could... i've tried so many things but nothings helped... nothing...
and how can anyone love anyone as screwed up as me... my dad's gf even tells me the reasons why no one could ever love me... ever... and she's right...

[Tristin.]

have you given any thought as to why you cut?

[sarahtheweber]

Yes and no... It started out as one of the few things i actually had control over in my life, and now it is my life...
now it helps me feel something good in a pain thats spread all over... seeing the blood drip... its like a drug that helps the pain recede... it creates a numbness thats better than the pain......

[AncientCatastrophe]

Don't let your Dads GF get to you...
She says things like that cause she doesn't understand what your going through
and I'll also help if you understand and think about why you hurt yourself.

[sarahtheweber]

i wish it were that easy... god if it were anywhere close to that easy, i'd be fine now... but i'm not. everyone i once cared for is gone- either i can't see then or their dead... my dad don't care unless i make HIM look bad... and his gf is a bitch who thinks she's my mom... in a bad way... my mom can't even be called a mom though...

[The_Narwhal]

Please, you have to try and stop, i know its hard but you have to try.

I used to be depressed myself, i know how you feel. Even though i didnt cut myself, i was close to suicide and i almost did it a few times.

Listen theres people out there who care for you, I know we on the forums do.
Dont let your Dads GF win.

If you need to talk, email me as my private messege system isnt active yet.

Please try to stop harming yourself. There is people who care about you.

[sarahtheweber]

why do people keep saying there are people who care? no one does... not even my best friend. he himself said that he cares if i die or cur/burn, but then one day i was feeling down and wanted to cut... i texted him, just wanting to talk about it and get help. he said- sarah, i can't deal with you when your like this. just don't even talk to me when you heve a cut or burn on your body.
haven't talked to him since... my other 'friends' are the same... no body cares...

[The_Narwhal]

He said that beacause he couldent stand you hurting yourself. He does care and it seems like your upseting him by doing it.

Also we on the forums care.

You have to stop hurting yourself.

[sarahtheweber]

if he really cared, he would have stayed to talk, even if it wasn't to help... so i'm on my own as usual... how can people that don't even know me care??

[The_Narwhal]

Ive knon self harmers in the past and i know how it feels to know that someone you care about it hurting themselves. The self-harming droce him away. He probably cared too much to see you hurt yourself.

Also when you said about people who dont know you not being able to care, people on the forums do care.

I dont know you but yet I care and im sure others do aswell.

If you stop ypu might be able to rekindle your freindship with this guy.

[sarahtheweber]

how can you care though?? without knowing me for more than this forum, how can you care... i don't even know why people care for me...

[The_Narwhal]

I care beacause you seem like a person who needs help at the moment. Trust me if i didnt care, i wouldent be offering advice to you.

[sarahtheweber]

true true... but it'd be nice if people other than the people here cared...

[The_Narwhal]

Like i said, i bet your freind still does. Id just suggest talking to him to sort all this out and trust me, even if you cant, you can still make new ones, it could be at school or doing a hobby or something.

I wish you the best of luck with it.

[sarahtheweber]

like i've said before, hobbies don't work out for me... and i'm not taking normal classes with my fellow classmates... haha......

[The_Narwhal]

Oh well i wish you the best of luck, theres many other ways anyway :)

I also hope everything goes well with you and your friend.

[sarahtheweber]

thank you much. i hope my life turns around soon. haha. i miss my friend...

[The_Narwhal]

Np. :D