I feel like I'm going to relapse

[bleedoutlove]

I don't know why, I just feel out of control and weak. I feel like I won't achieve my goals and shouldn't bother trying. And I just feel... I don't even know. Sorry I had to get that out.

[fenrirdies]

I know how you feel but cutting yourself should not be the frst thing you turn to. You should try listening to music to drown out the bad thoughts and stuff like that to get your mind off it. You could also find someone to talk to about it, if you want I'm always willing to listen well read and try to help.

[bleedoutlove]

Thanks a lot... I just feel terrible :/

[ShatteredGlass]

Feelings are temporary but you can never take back what you've done. Set some short term goals to make it towards you long term one. Instead of just "Stop cutting" Try "Successfully resist the temptation to cut" and "Research coping mechanisms" "Use a coping mechanism" "Use a coping mechanism to avoid cutting" "Dont add another scar" "Do something I can be proud of." And celebrate your progress just dont focus on "cutting's bad" but focus on I've made it a day and havent cut once. I've made it a week and havent cut. I made it a month and havent cut once. Or even I've made it a week and cut less, I made it a month and cut less. It doesnt have to happen all at once healing is a process. Think ahead, see yourself cut free, see yourself coping, and then see yourself helping others because you were able to help yourself and let that be the person your after. Dont look at your past, look towards the future. If you spend all your time looking backwards you're bound to run into something.

[bleedoutlove]

Thanks. I haven't cut in months, I've just been really on edge recently.

[bleedoutlove]

I cut last night, but it didn't even bleed and I just did it over scar tissue. I can't go back to doing this again :(

[Nevermore]

If you feel a relapse coming on, and you want to prevent it, then here's how. Distract yourself 24/7. Go to a friends house. Do something you love to do. Get rid of all sharp objects. You can commit yourself to a hosptial (it's a safe environment) where you won't be able to self harm. These are just options by the way. Resist you are stronger then the urge. You can do this! Don't tell yourself you can't, because your setting yourself up for failure. Think about all the people who love and care about you. Write down all the negatives to giving into self harm, DONT list the positives. Hope this helps, talk to me anytime. <3

[bleedoutlove]

Can you admit yourself to a hospital without your parents knowing/without it going on your record? Thanks :)

[flumeendeavors]

I know how hard it can be to stop. It's hard for me sometimes and ive even been clean 5 months! BUT ... it does get easier with time. Something that helped me was that i found somebody to get better for. I couldnt get better for myself, my mom, my dad, not even my sister or my best friend. But i found out a while ago that one of the greatest people in my life is pregnant and something in me just clicked. I dont want to be some depressed suicidal loser when i meet that baby. It might take time, but you will eventually find somebody or something to get better for if you just look for it. If you ever need to talk you can text me: 780-884-4995

[AppealToReason]

Calen, I think it would be better to let them send you a visitor message instead of giving out your number, lol.



Can you admit yourself to a hospital without your parents knowing/without it going on your record? Thanks :)
I'm not sure of how things work in the UK, but I really doubt it. Maybe someone who's been to one can help out. Though, if things are bad you should consider telling your parents. They may be able to help you...

[bleedoutlove]

Yeah but I just don't get on with my parents, nothing good would ever come out of telling them, thanks though