Tears dripping from my eyes...

[emmyliz11]

Damn. Depression blows. I hate the feeling of nothingness that overcomes my body everyday and night. I hate the feeling of being unloved and knowing that no one loves me, to my knowledge. I hate that it feels like my life has become one big ball of depression and anger and hate. It hurts that my parents can't even tell. I hurts that my brother and I don't even talk anymore. I've turned to the things my parents didn't want me to turn to. I hate the fact that I can't help but cry everynight and occasionally during the day. I hurt all the time. I know that I should get help, I just don't know how. I'm scared that this will turn rational and I'll do something that could end up where it shouldn't. I just don't know what to do anymore...

[Jupiter]

:( talk to me if you need to..

[Iris]

Oh hun unfortunately I know how you feel... Have you tried talking to a friend about it? Feeling alone when you have depression is horrible. No one should have to deal with depression on their own.

Also have you considered talking to a psychologist? They really do help ease the load. If you don't want to tell your parents you want to see a psychologist for depression, you can give an excuse like anxiety or something. The psychologist can't tell them anything you say, as long as you aren't planning your suicide. You can't deal with this by yourself; it'll just get worse and worse. Don't let your life slip away from you. Get some help.

[mxiii]

your not the only one =) i feel this every night. it keeps my mind up all night. i wonder whether is it really my fault for all the things happening to me. there are times i would just not want to get up of bed.

[NobodysCupOf Tea]

This is word for fucking word actuate about my life a few months ago!

I know what it's like, the sheer weight, actual weight that you can feel from feeling so depressed. When you can't face the day, even lifting your head off the pillow seems impossible. When you don't want to see or talk to anyone. When you feel lime there's no one that must know how youre feeling. But I do.

This was me a few months ago, and I dont think I'm at the 'full recovery' stage, but it's a fucking lot better! The first step I took was getting a concelleor. Originally I hated the idea of talking to her, having somone know EVERYTHING, but it actually helped after a couple months. Also, connect with your friends, go and see people, don't sit by yourself. I know it's what you want to do, but it will help - TRUST ME. finally, I had to plan things to look forward to, somthing I would enjoy in the future... Like goof to my dads, trips to the cinema, weekends away, shopping or just my fave TV show and a pizza.

It seems a million miles away right now, but it's not, and things will get better.

Chin up and feel free to inbox me x

[BrokenButterflies]

Oh, I know how you feel. It's horrible never being able to be happy or laugh. You can PM me or talk to me here if you ever need to :)

[sandyrip1]

If anybody needs me I'm a great listener and take it from a person who was depressed 24/7 like I have actually watched people die its not fun depression sucks but I found ways to feel like i belong like every week i help teens and adults that want to just end it they feel unloved unwanted and its just them not noticing what they really have so please if you need to talk to somebody I like talk to people for hours on end about this stuff please skype me or something!

[emmyliz11]

I could use anybody to talk to really, thanks everyone.