Bulimic thoughts

[Aubrie]

I ate a lot more than I usually do yesterday. I have thought about throwing up before when I eat a lot, but I've never acted on it. I have starved myself as a form of punishment before.

Anyway, last night I puked at like 3 am and instantly I thought, "Well, now I don't have to feel guilty for eating all of that food." It kind of shocked me that I thought that. It doesn't have to do with weight; it has to do with punishment/reward.

I'm a little worried that this could be like the early stages of an eating disorder. I don't really count starving myself before as one, but maybe I'm just in denial. Idk. Is this something I should be concerned about?

[bambino]

yes this i definitley something to be concerned about
starving yourself is not normal behaviour
also my throwing up started similar to you, I felt sick and just threw up then I thought: oh I feel a lot better now. Then I'd start making myself sick on purpose. It's a slippery slope.

Please get help x