Can't stop

[Megson]

It's starting to become a daily thing now. I've done it almost everyday since I relapsed, and the thing is, I don't want help.
I want to cut. I don't see anything wrong with it. It's my body. Shouldn't I be allowed to do this if I want to?

But I hate feeling like there's something wrong with me. How everyone will see me if I come clean. It's either quit, continue lying, or tell someone.

I'd never tell my family. There's only one friend I would even consider telling, and I don't think I'll even do that.

I'm so conflicted...!

[StoppingTime]

First, there isn't anything wrong with you because you cut.
Think about how you were before your relapse, what did you do to not cut? Do anything enjoyable to be able to take your mind off it.
As for what people would think if you came clean, I hope they would be supportive, but that is a very personal matter, and I wouldn't take it lightly.
Good Luck! :D

[Megson]

First, there isn't anything wrong with you because you cut.
Think about how you were before your relapse, what did you do to not cut? Do anything enjoyable to be able to take your mind off it.
As for what people would think if you came clean, I hope they would be supportive, but that is a very personal matter, and I wouldn't take it lightly.
Good Luck! :D

I stopped the first time because my life was just...better.

Now that school is back and worse than ever, this is my only outlet next to writing.

[ShadowGirl]

Just because you cut doesn't mean you're a freak or anything. There are lots and lots of people like you. Do you remember how you felt before you started cutting? At least in my case I felt better. I want to go back to that feeling, but it takes lots of hard work. Is it possible for you to seek counseling on your own?

[StoppingTime]

This may sound really stupid, but try writing down whats bothering you on paper, shred it into a million pieces, and repeat.
If you really enjoy writing, try doing it when you get the urge to cut. Write something unrealted to it, so that your not tempted.
And if you feel the need for counseling, is there any way you can get it without telling a parent?

[Megson]

Just because you cut doesn't mean you're a freak or anything. There are lots and lots of people like you. Do you remember how you felt before you started cutting? At least in my case I felt better. I want to go back to that feeling, but it takes lots of hard work. Is it possible for you to seek counseling on your own?


This may sound really stupid, but try writing down whats bothering you on paper, shred it into a million pieces, and repeat.
If you really enjoy writing, try doing it when you get the urge to cut. Write something unrealted to it, so that your not tempted.
And if you feel the need for counseling, is there any way you can get it without telling a parent?

I'm trying writing as a substitute, actually. It works a lot of the time, but sometimes, just because a razor is in reach, I use it. I wish I could throw them all away, but that's not really an option here.

As for counseling, I doubt I could find it without my parents. I have a school counselor, but if I went to them, they'd tell my parents. Cutting is misunderstood as being suicidal too often. Plus, I have terrible trust issues...

[ShadowGirl]

I hate how people think cutting is a suicidal act! If you talk to someone about cutting, be sure to explain that it's not because you want to kill yourself. They will be less likely to tell your parents.

[StoppingTime]

I hate how people think cutting is a suicidal act! If you talk to someone about cutting, be sure to explain that it's not because you want to kill yourself. They will be less likely to tell your parents.
I don't cut, but I do completely agree with this. And if you really trust the school counselor wouldn't tell your parents, then I would try to talk with them.