I feel like killing

[fenrirdies]

I'm kinda depressd ,my mom and younger brother have been gone for days so it just me and my older brother. Most of the time my mom keeps my mind off my depression or I bother my little brother , my brother is at our aunts while my sister and mom are in atlanta so I have nothing to do. My two best friends are ignoring me for some reason and it is annoyinv me , for the last few hours I have been thinking of how I would kill them. I know it is not a ok thing to do, I ended up making a small deep cut on my forearm that blead alot . Now I am less depressed but I still feel uneasy.

[NobodysCupOf Tea]

just take a step back and realise what your considering..

'killing your family cus theyve been away for a few days'

youre right, its not normal. you need to take a breath and calm down.

talk to your other brother, If youre looking for a distraction, stick on a film. just be around somone so you dont sit alone with your thoughts!

[aperson444]

I can actually rationally understand that. Loneliness shreds up the mind. I guess I can't help a lot, but feel free to message me or people around here. Focus on trying to get real-world connections with people too. Try to find something to do (I know it sounds vague). Hell, if you can't think of anything, go watch some porn. But never forget your situation is 100% temporary. It will end eventually.

[fenrirdies]

I wouldn't kill my family well at least not my mom or little brother, my friends I have no poblem with . I already have the urge to kill but talked to doctor about it , it is just that me being ignored without reason gives me a target. Last time we talked everthing was great so I'm not sure why this is happening. I'm not mad anymore but still wish I knew what was wrong for them to ignore me.