I'm a failure.

[Aceso]

Sorry for the rant, I just need some space to vent.
I've spent the past five hours crying and screaming into my pillow.
I'm a failure. I deserve all this SHIT.
Cut my wrist again. All this shit that's been happening, I can't take it anymore. 4 days before school starts. No idea how i'm gonna hide it, I almost don't care anymore.
I want to feel the pain again. I'm rewinding, but never far enough. Never far enough to be happy. I didn't believe memories could haunt until now. I can't let go, it's driving me insane.
Nobody is understanding. I'm so sick of all the lies, and to the few who I've tried talking to, they don't get it. For fucks sake, why is no one listening? :(
I'm hurting. I don't know how to live life anymore. I feel more alive in my dreams then I do in real life....
I hate this. I hate it all. Nothing's working. :(

[OptimusPrime]

*Hugs* I'm always available to listen and so is everyone else here. If you want I could talk to you to distract you from the real world. As I was told last night I'm a great distracting tool. But even if you want to rant I'm available for that too.

[Travis Is Losing It]

Through life there is always a ton of shit we will fail at and well pretty much feel worthless because we cant do/fix/obtain/etc it. Looking at the bad side of all of it wont ever help. You dont diserve any of it because noone does. If you ever want to talk you can reach me on skype (traviswazhere) on a PM through the forums or any other prefered form you want just pm me and let me know and i can set one up of any method. Everything WILL be ok just takes time. Giving into the pain and hurt is never the answer because you are stronger than it