XxMurderedKissesxX
September 2nd, 2011, 04:56 PM
Sometimes I want to stop,i want to go back to the way things where before I relapsed. I miss the freedom,the energy to get by on my own when things went bad,and for the first time in a LONG time,i wouldnt have to go at it alone. Other times Im so terrified to stop. I dont want my scars to faid,i dont want to let go of whats helped me threw the worst times of my life. Its something I can call my own. Ill throw out my.."tools" then go frantic with the knowledge if I want to cut,i cant. But if I dont have them I cant cut. Until I go insane and find anything I can get my hands on. Idunno what to do. I want to stop. I dont. WTF? Im stuck. My emotions go to the extreme on both sides. Now what?