A New Start With Old Friends..

[NobodysCupOf Tea]

Last year at school i pushed all my old friends away.

I became severely depressed and began to self harm. I didnt want to be around people and so cut myself off from all my friends and im afraid ive lost them.

The summer is coming to a close and only a couple of them have kept in contact and met up with me. Not wanting to sound up myself, but usually i dont have a day without friends.

This summer i've been left alone, and i dont want to start school and for nothing to change!

I know you'll say that my 'true friends' will forgive and greet me with open arms... but they wont, and i dont know what to do.

If they carry on ignoring me then i'll start feeling low again, and i cant take the bitching...

any help? please :'(

[DerBear]

You pushed them away so the reason they will be ignoring you is the fact that they are hurt by the fat that you pushed them away.

You need to start slow and say that you are sorry and try to plan "small" but fun activites...re start common intrests.

Once you re-break the ice then it will get better.

Good Luck
*smiles*

[Kujiro]

Im sorry but, if my friend is to push me away, and i feel that im a true friend, i would stick on to help him/her sail through the harder periods in their life.

If they allowed themselves to be pushed away, i dont think even getting them back would be a good idea. Plenty from where that came from, make new friends whom treasure you and understands you.
Apperciate the new ones whom are willing to understand what you are going through.

On your part, give them confidence in you.
In order for any friend to trust you, you would have to have trust in them first. Friendship is and will always be something mutual, and never one sided.

Many a times, making new friends open new windows and new perspectives in life. There is always room for someone to be a friend, let bygones be bygones.
If they want to come back in your life, accept them.
But if they dont, theres really nothing much you can and should do about it.
Afterally they decided to leave after being pushed in the first place.

Good Luck
*smile*