i need too.

[districtnowhere]

i thought i am out of the woods. but i guess i'm not.

infact my death wish was never stronger.

the thing is my dad saw a photo on my phone of two boys kissing. and said to show it to mom. then he started calling me a fucking fag and when he yelled at me for being gay i didn't reply at all.

so the fact is he knows my sexual orientation and he is very very homophobic. i really want to i really need to die right now. i'm posting this now because i'm sure he'll isolate me from the world by taking my internet and electricity and i'm really scared . i was always scared this will happen.

i really need to cut otherwise i think i will kill myself for real..

i'm shaking and crying right now.

he also violently grabbed my hand trying to take my phone so i have some bruises on my arms

[Love.Hate]

Rok calm down, slow deep breathes.

He was going to find out one day, he will get used to the idea one day. He isnt going to hate you, he is just shocked. I know you feel really bad, but you need to give him some time to let it sink in. He is an idiot if he doesnt accept you, because your the nicest person ever.

Dont cut, get on facebook and talk to me, we will talk this out. It will be okay <3 <3

[Brokeandbetrayed]

Please don't hurt yourself or attempt to kill yourself. If your dad really loved you he would accept your sexual orientation. He just probably didn't see the is coming. Once he gets over the initial stage of finding out I'm sure he will accept it. It's probably better he find out now than later.

[Jimmy Page]

Calm down Rok,give it some time and it will change,he was just shocked,if he don't accept it in time its his loss,not yours.

I understand how it feels,my mom found out a similar way(50GB of porn on my PC).Both my mom and my stepdad yelled at me for hours,told me i was i "mistake",that i had to move to my dad because of it.

I really wish i could help you more but i cant,and right now i hate myself for it.

[TheOneAndOnlyJack]

My father was the same when I came out,

He even beat me.

But a week later he apologized for the beating.

And now a few months down the line I even have my boyfriend over our place and my dad doesn't mind :)

There is no need to cut yourself, I know it hurts that they don't accept it so easily, but because they hurt you doesn't me you need to hurt yourself too.

Chin up, your too adorable for me to stand by as you cut yourself, :)

Chin up :)

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Oh hunny,I know how hard it is. My father slammed me into the wall and started choking me when he found out i had a girlfriend. I had a total mental break down,I couldnt breathe,I couid barely move. But it DOES get better,I promise. Just take it one step at a time,no matter what anyone says love is love,fuck gender. There will always be people to talk and help u threw this. If u ever wanna talk,u can inbox me whenever. Keep ur head up. Ive been where u r. Ive tried killing myself,ive been so numb I swore I was dead. But if my suicide attempt had worked,I never wouldve met the amazing supportive and always loving people that are in my life today.

[dannilove]

How did you get him to stop abusing you tho?