I don't know what to do.

[Brokeandbetrayed]

I just started self harming again. I stopped for I guess 4 months I think but I started again. It's not bad yet... Just scratching the crap out of my arms. It won't be be long until I get back to a knife. I don't want togo back to self harming badly but the stress is just adding on and things keep getting worse. I don't know how to stop and I can go maybe a day without harming. I just want to stop but idk how to. Help please.

[fenrirdies]

Hmh stop scratching yourself if it will lead to cutting to start.

[Brokeandbetrayed]

Well that's self harm and I seem to not be able to even stop scratching my arms

[fenrirdies]

hmh clip your nails

[Brokeandbetrayed]

I don't have any need to and that wouldn't work as a substitute for self harming cus id find a reason To hurt myself with them.

[fenrirdies]

it is so you can't scratch yourself you could hurt yourself with anything

[Brokeandbetrayed]

I explained to you why I won't do that.

[fenrirdies]

can you tell me what is triggering you to do it

[fenrirdies]

and what made you start back hurting yourself

[Brokeandbetrayed]

It's just stuff like my mom started drinking really bad again, and I didn't make it into any honors classes and other stuff that's making me hurt myself.

[Amaryllis]

It's not impossible to stop. I relapsed after a year but I'm planning on recovering... One of these days... I'm always been a nail-digger. I still hurt myself during that one year break, admittedly. I was anorexic. Still though... It is possible. You've probably heard this before but try distraction.

When I feel the urge to cut, I go on VT and rant to Michael or read other people's threads and try to help them. Or I write poetry. Lots and lots of poetry. Try to keep your hands busy when the urge comes. I used to fold paper stars and right now I'm making ribbon bracelets. Maybe you could pick up Origami.

I understand it's hard. I haven't gone a day without an eating disorder since 2 years ago. Now that anorexia's gone, I'm turning to cutting, somewhat. My mum triggers me the most, as well. But I can't blame her. I'm the one doing the hurting. Try to avoid conversations that may trigger you. I'm distancing myself from people and things that may hurt me. At least, I'm trying to.

Music helps as well. But not triggering music. Happy and motivating music.

And remember: Life is what you make it. Always has been, always will be.

Love,
Faith and Trust

[Brokeandbetrayed]

Thanks :p I will try something like music or working or something

[fenrirdies]

I would go with Z I ise music to block out the my problems