Trying hard to stop.

[LittlePaperStars]

I hate my mom. she refuses to listen to me when I tell her it's hard to stop althogether. I'm trying really hard. I cracked yesterday...Instead of in the shower when the scars puff up, I did a few on my arm, while I wasn't in the shower, so they were noticeable. I was too stupid to cut my fingers or rinse them off. So later, mom noticed and went all ballsey on me. I was so upset.

But I really wanna stop, for my sister's sake, and my best friends sake. Plus I want mom and dad to get off my back.
So...since the only thing I use is my razor, tomorrow at school, I'll give it to my best friend, and tell her to pitch it in the feild behind our school...or in a few days...
It'll be hard, but I'll manage, hopefully.

[Aubrie]

It's good that you want to stop and want to throw away your razor, but are you sure? I'm not trying to discourage you by any means, but just warning you. I haven't cut in 1 year and almost 2 months - I threw my razor away about a month ago (I made a pact with my boyfriend that I'd throw it away if he threw his weed away), and I started freaking out. It made me want to cut more. Just make sure that you're doing this on your own time/schedule. NOT anyone elses'. One of the worst things you can do on the road to recovery is take too big of steps too soon.

[fenrirdies]

Good luck I love all my knives to much to do anything like that.

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Its hard,ive done something similar. At first u regret it and ur pissy with urself for getting rid of ur tools and ur desprate to find something else to use,but after awhile,the insane urge that drives u crazy,dies down little by little and slowly u become stronger and can better resist the want to cut. Good luck : ) The first few days are the hardest,but I know u can do it. Hang in there.

[LittlePaperStars]

Thanks guys :) You're all helping me so much; I know what I'll do. *hugs*