My dad's driving me insane

[xktx]

My family own a flower nursery, dads been working on it since he was 14, and took it over from grandad when he was 19. But its loosing money, to such a state where we have no idea how foods getting on the table. But dads stressed out..... to such a state he smashed his phone up and got in the car and drove off for 3 hours, not telling anyone he was going, where he was going, or when he'd come back. Hes now sat on mums and dads bed crying. :S
Mums a mess, ive never ever seen her cry, i came in the door and she collapsed on me. Im meant to be the strong one, im looking after a 10week old puppy, and keeping the house going. I cant take it anymore....
Its been 3 weeks since i last sh, and i know your all going to say 'well done, if you can do it that long, you can keep at it' but i had enough stress as it was...... i actually feel like giving in, i want to feel calm again, happy, peaceful...... i dont really know what to ask for, or what to do. I cant tell mum anything about my self harming cos i dont think she can take anymore, but i cant keep this up......

sorry its a long piece of writing, but i just wondered has anyone been here before, how did you stop sh. cos i want to stop, but at the same time i really dont :S x

[User Deleted]

Always remember, now matter how bad, you can always pull through, better times are waiting at the end. I don't blame you for wanting to give in. Even some of the strongest people would want to give in during such bad times. Anyone would. But if you stay strong no matter how bad you want to quit you can help comfort and support your family. Weather they show it or not I am sure they would be very grateful.

[xktx]

yeah but it appears each time life gets batter, theres always something wrong round the corner :S x

[User Deleted]

I know how you feel. Although it has not been as bad a situations my emotions can be erratic. Little things bother me a lot. I finally adapted, but I remember how it felt to always have this or that wrong. And eventually I got depressed.

Getting depressed helped nothing, in fact it screwed me over. People were not happy even being around me. But once I just got back on my feet and finished the race, things finally seemed to start getting better. Now there were bumps along the way, but just keep strong, things will get better with time.

[xktx]

i guess... i had diagnosed depression a few months back, and the last few weeks have been really good ... i dont think ive ever been so happy, then about 3-4 days ago, this happened :S x

[User Deleted]

Last year would jump daily or monthly depending on how it decided to get it ranged from shit licking fun to great. And it wasn't usually at great. It took a year for me, but I made it through. I didn't let it impale my grades, I didn't let it ruin my friendships, I didn't let it make me start self harming. I toughed it through, I was sad, but it was well worth the long term effects.

[fenrirdies]

do what is best for you

[OptimusPrime]

*Hugs* I'm here if you want to rant on PM or VM.

[xktx]

thanks. x