Figures

[HeartCoreHannah]

Michael decided to give up on me and leave me. I thought he was different. He swore up and down he wasn't going to leave me like everyone else does. He said constantly he was going to be with me until the very end, and I believed it. But just like everyone else, he lied...or at least changed his mind. I still love him. I don't think those feelings will ever fade. I really don't think I can go through all of this without him. I'm nothing without him by my side. I haven't talked to him in about a week. I'm hoping he'll start to miss me and want me back. But if it doesn't work.... I will be devastated.. I need him. More than I need anyone or anything. I know I'm only 16, but he was suppose to be my one. The boy I got married to and grew old with, then eventually died a happy old little hunched over lady with my weak, old, bold husband.

I don't know what I'm going to do without him. ):

[Sage]

You may not see it now, but marrying the person you liked when you were sixteen is, almost universally, a bad idea. Go do something for yourself, as it's not hard to see you've a confidence issue by your feelings of helplessness and despair over simply being single (which isn't inherently a bad thing.) Worrying about dying alone is something that shouldn't trouble you until your 30's or 40's at least, so go warm up a nice tea kettle and reevaluate your individual self-worth.

[HeartCoreHannah]

It's not that I don't want to be alone. I have no problem with being single. I love him with everything inside of me. I know 99.9% of high school relationships don't work out, and I guess mine is one of them. But I really thought it was going to. I had so much faith in our relationship and in him. Blahh, I don't know.. But I'll try your tea suggestion. Warm sweet tea usually does sooth me.