Help

[Everglow]

Hi guys...I have a bit of a concern for a friend...She is a member here and is going through a lot of personal struggles right now. Many of you know her as no1knos, but I, and some of you know her as Sara. Regretably, many of you also know that Sara has had many suicidal tendencies. Well, I know that she has been making significant improvements over the past few days and I could never be more grateful to hear of her beautiful success. Tonight, I received a text message from Sara. It is below.

To put it simply i'm feeling depressed. And i'm about to give up on getting better. but don't worry about me. i just want someone to know i might slip again.

I need help guys. A few people can only do so much, as Lynn and I have been in contact with her for quite sometime. We are definatley asking for help from anyone and everyone who wants to support Sara and her fight for life. Conselors and moderators, your suggestions are more than welcome too!!

[*lynn*]

please guys...i think she might've attempted suicide tonight...i mean i'm not sure...but maybe...

[*lynn*]

sara glad you didn't...that's good

[Evrythng_im_not]

Bye bye

[Elscire]

!
hell no you're not dying on my watch!
Saras, i know how you feel about being depressed is but have you considered everyone else's feelings? i may not have depression but why are you thinking of suicide? life isn't always fair but each day we struggle to live our life to the fullest. tell me. have you've seen a man who had his neck injured and was not able to walk nor move his arms anymore? i have and this man who came to our school and talked about wanting to walk and to feel things again. from being paralyzed from the neck down he lived each day thinking he was better off dead because he thought he was a nuisance to people to having to feed him and change him. he even had thoughts to die but he knows that because his younger brother saved him from death, he knows that he wasn't suppose to waste his second chance of life even if they hated each other, today he continues to strive to live. so please, don't go killing yourself, you'll only make people sad if you were gone

[Evrythng_im_not]

-shrug- and so I get to go on another day

[Sapphire]

Sara, I know only too well how desperate and alone you must be feeling. I have struggled with manic depression for years now and I attempted to end it all in November. Please, just take it all day by day. Talk with people on here. You can add me to msn, pm me, anything. Just please keep yourself occupied.
I don't know the ins and outs of your situation, but professional help along with caring friends can do wonders. Please, try to fight this. That is all I ask, just for you to try a little bit more. x

[Evrythng_im_not]

Sitting in class, pretending to pay attention. I don't know why I was the way I was last night. All I know is that when I fell asleep after talking to jma08 and *lynn* I never wanted to wake up. I ripped my arms up slightly... so much for wearing long sleeves in the summer. My legs are scarred up as well. So, I'm sorry v.v
I'm trying, but I guess not hard enough.



Sara is: presently presenting signs of suicidal tendencies and impulses.... I can't stop the impulses as well as I can stop the tendencies

[*lynn*]

sara, if you're trying as hard as you can then you are doing the best that you can do and we have to be happy with that. last night was scary...but i am so glad that you are still alive, i was worried about that. and as for not being able to wear short sleeves and having to wear long sleeves...your cuts will heal...they always do. you'll survive this!!!

know that i'm here for you! stay strong today and tonight!!!

lynn

[Bobby]

Okay, Sara, I'm sure it's somewhere else, but what is the source of the problem?

[Hyper]

Bobby that question is realy.. Hard to answer, and I am sure she can't tell you what is the direct cause of the problem, neither could I, it starts from somwehere and turns into many sources

[Evrythng_im_not]

Everything she says to me makes me want to die... and my medicine doesn't work

[Bobby]

She = your mother? Sorry I didn't really read the begging of the thread.

You should try and confront this person and tell them how you feel.

[Evrythng_im_not]

sara is fucked >.<
fucked
fucked
fucked
fucked
fucked

Where is Steven when I need him? Not online. Oh god, I don't want to die tonight

[Evrythng_im_not]

So my sanity has slipped a long with promises of no more cutting. The angels are dead and I'm the next to go...

[Hyper]

The angels are alive, and so are you just stay strong and don't loose help, I can't help you as much as someone who knows you so just hang on

[Evrythng_im_not]

I swear it's over

[Ironic Infidel In England]

No it's not, keep yourself alive and uncut, if only to spite those who hate you. You are the most important thing in the world. Never forget that.

[Evrythng_im_not]

With my deepest regards I'm writing this to say I'm sorry for what I've done. I've put it off for far too long now. I've held my head up so high for so long and it's time for it to come down. My heart is slowing to a dull monotonous beat that is barely heard. My blood is slowing in it's veins, saving what I have left to prolong this life for what it's worth. Giving in and giving up is all I know, when everyone's given up on me.

I guess in true fashion this is a suicide note. Sadly it's not. Not yet. I promised I wouldn't, and I'm not one for breaking promises. I'll hold this life for as long as I can. This isn't a suicide note, just a note to let you know. To let you know I'm breaking down, and falling apart. Trying as hard as i can to not go through with this. I don't want to give up this easily. Throwing together a few choice pieces of clothes. Here's how it goes. Beautiful dress, and I'm out for everyone to see my scars. Beautiful scars that make me beautiful.

Once more this isn't a suicide note, just a suicide wish. Cautiously pressing this razor against my wrist, I draw it slowly, watching the blood slowly at first drip down my arm. But I'll live to see another day. Suicide isn't for me, it isn't for anyone, but it's following me around like the ghost of her.

[Everglow]

I really hope that I can believe you. I honestly don't know how you can apologize for your actions and continually harm yourself time and time again. If it's an addiction, so many people have told you to get professional help. At this point in time, I fear than none of us know what to do in this situtaion. We've all tried our hardest to fight for you and convince you that you are worth so much more than you believe. Sadly, our passionate pleas continue to fall upon deaf ears. I just don't know what I can believe now, but I pray that I can trust your words. I regret to say that deep down inside, I truly think that this is a suicide note. It pains me even more to know that you implored my aid last night as I slept. I failed you. I only found out because I checked my phone when I woke up in the middle of the night. I'm sorry I was sleeping when you needed me the most.

[kikicupkake]

dont do it , my freind killed her self and now i have bin scared for life. i think that living is a beter than siting i a void of space wondering whats going to happen next when you know that nothings going to happen. your freinds would be come like emo. but i hoped this helped you alot so dont do it please i dont think that my suicidal thought were bad but i feel sorry for you i cant make up my mind if to let you kill your self like i did my freind or help you so you dont end up like my freind. 0.o"

[*lynn*]

sara, how are things going?

[thesphinx]

im soo sorry you have to go through this.
i am sort of in the same situation im dealing with major depression, major anxeity disorder.
i might be diabetic.
and life sucks sometimes but you have to continue.
for all you know you could kill yourself and end up in a worse place then this.
anyway though please dont do it.
dont add to the thousands of suicides that happen every day.
please dont do it i whole heatedly care for you.
and i would like to show you something you said in another thread.

"I, Sara Elaine, promise never to commit suicide"

if you commit suicide you will break the chain and everyone else that signed the chain will have been let down.
you are reasponsible for those people you made a promise and if you didn't think you could keep it then you CANT sign.
you stuck im sorry but you can't do it you read the agreement before you signed.
and you excepted it.
and we are here for you to help you through this dont give up!