Suicide.

[alley]

I've been considering it for about a month now. Playing around with situations in my head. Thinking, constantly, that I can make all of this go away. And i'm not scared anymore. I don't find it terrifying that everything will just..end. I think, that it could solve everything. I don't understand the phrase 'suicide is not the answer'...because, it really is, all my problems can vanish. And I won't have to worry about the repercussions of my actions because i'll be dead. Yes, extremely selfish. But I just don't care, I don't care about anything anymore. I've just reached an absolute low and I can accept that, there is no point running away from this, I need to face up to it, and solve it. And suicide, well, call it the cowardly way out, but really, can't think of another answer. The one thing that is holding me back is some part of me, telling me that I need to really think about this, as you only get one shot at life so don't waste it. That, worries me. I don't want to make the wrong decision yet I feel this is most likely the right one. Can't explain how close I am to this. Anyone else ever been this close?...

[Brokeandbetrayed]

Don't ever give in to suicide. Your right, you only get one shot at life, so don't waste it. Things will get better eventually so just wait it out :) Suicide may seem like the answer but it isn't. I use to think that suicide is the answer and on bad days I still to do. But I have to think to myself and remind myself that it isn't? I hope everything gets better and that this post helped in some way. Message me if ya need anything :)

[Aubrie]

It's when you're not scared anymore that you need help asap. It may not seem like it now, but things will eventually get better. One of the quotes that pretty much saved my life goes, "No one ever said that life would be easy; they just promised that it will be worth it."

Try talking to someone, whether it be in person or in real life. Just don't give up. If you would like, you can message me on here or my msn.

[xDarkAngelx]

I know what you mean, earlier this month I even found myself tearing up my own suicide note I was that fed up. I still have frequent suicide thoughts and how my problems would all disappear my doing so. Never know why I didn't/haven't acted upon it.

[Tango]

Suicide is a permanent solution, for a temporary problem.

If you want to, just know you won't ever get a shot at life again. It will be over. Everyone has their ups and downs, you just have to pull through it. You're only 15, it will get better. Look at the positives instead of the negatives and don't let anyone bring you down.

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Ive been where u are now. I wasnt afraid of death,I wanted to die, I didnt care how my death would impact the people around me,Nothing matters. F*ck,ur just a rotting corpse right? Well,I held off on my...3rd attempt for just alittle longer,and I met someone. We've been together seven months and with his support im slowly getting better. If I didnt wait,I would of never met my lover,and soon to be father of my child. Things do get better. U just have to fight the urge to give up.

[Rdsxbaseballfan]

fight through it. life will get better as time goes on. if you take your life it will be the end. your young and you have a full life to live. theres people who love you and will miss you.

[Bradworth]

Definitely NOT the right answer. You're not solving anything by committing suicide, more like running away from it. As others have already said life has its ups and downs but you only get one shot at it. Some people don't even get a chance to live because of complications at birth, etc. We're far from bliss on this planet but you cannot give up because there is no turning back! It sounds like you need someone to talk to and help you through this rough patch. I'm always willing to listen and help out and I'm sure others here will do the same. Your life is important, everyone's life is important, just don't give up!

[music is my soul]

I know this is isnt a new theard but ill lik to throw my 2 cents i to this.

Evrybody has their bad days or weeks or months. Hell i hav tons of em. But thats not a reason to end it all. I mean u cant say u never hav good days. Evryone has bad days but theyre always followed by a good one or at least a better. I guess wat im trying to say is dont do it just because of a few really bad days. I know It may seem lik its never going to end but trust me it will. We all go thro rough spots in life but we gotta learn how to live with it. Thats part of life. PM me if u want to talk sometime. Im always open to talk.

[insanity]

Ive been here.
I had a change of mind after reading a post on tumblr. I tryed to find the post again for you but I couldnt.

basically the post was about the effects your suicide would create. when considering it you dont realise how much people your death will really effect. Ten suicide is really sad and will efect ALOT of people.

think about:
who will find your dead body first? what will they do? who will they be?
who will clear out your room? sort out all your things? who will look through the photos at the smiling girl you were and wonder what happened? Who is the person that is going to get the hard job of telling your family? your friends? what about the person digging your grave thinking of the young girl that killed herself? what about all the people at your school? the affect it will have on them? what about friends, enemys, people you know all blaming themselfs for ever? what about your neighbours? your teachers? the people that prepare your young body?

then theese people will be affected and it will stick with them for ever.

Suicide isnt something to do.

what if it doesnt work? what if you get shut away in hostipal? all the gossip about you?

its not worth it.
things will get better.
I promise you.

[alley]

thanks for the responses everyone...

I'm holding myself back, even now. I'm still on the edge. But I'm going to hold it out, for everyone else. Like some of you said, it would be hard for everyone around me...I'd say that's all that is stopping me.
I wish life wasn't so complicated..but hell I guess...don't we all.

thankyou everyone though, made me consider alot more things...i'm going to fight for this.

[Bradworth]

thankyou everyone though, made me consider alot more things...i'm going to fight for this.

Good to hear! :D

If you ever need anyone to talk to I'm always willing to help :)

[LittlePaperStars]

I'm so glad that you're going to try really hard; it might seem bad now, but later on you'll see how much you would have been missing :)
I've been close to suicide too, but if you have encouragement and support, it can get you through anything. :)