Ednos???

[Aubrie]

I know you can't diagnose of course, but I just want some opinions.

Until a few months ago, I basically starved myself, but I definitely wasn't anorexic. I used to eat a lot, but I went to only eating lunch (small food portions), and maybe a granola bar in the morning on school days. I ate just enough to be able to function during the day, and over time that required less and less food.

I liked the feeling of being hungry. I felt like I didn't deserve to eat. That pain from the hunger was my punishment. I became a little concerned with calories because I didn't deserve my daily RCI.

I didn't realize what I was doing at first until my boyfriend at the time started getting concerned. I guess because I ate just enough to function and I was eating less to punish myself, it was an eating disorder?

Well, he threatened to leave me if I didn't start eating, so I recovered. Sometimes I still get into the, "I don't deserve food," thing, but I'm much better at it now. I'm just wondering if this would be considered an eating disorder? I never really thought of it as one until I read the sticky about EDNOS...

[screamtobeheard]

Well, were you doing it just to punish yourself, or was it also because you perceived yourself in need of weight loss?

[Aubrie]

Well, were you doing it just to punish yourself, or was it also because you perceived yourself in need of weight loss?

Mainly punishment. Like maybe 95% punishment 5% weight loss. At first it was just punishment and then I lost a few pounds and I liked having my completely flat stomach back.

[screamtobeheard]

I'm not a doctor, so I can't diagnose you anyway, but it's especially difficult to guess when your circumstances are so...I can't summon the proper adjective. I think it's kind of on the edge, and in all honesty, even doctors might waffle on whether or not it was an eating disorder. I'm sorry I can't give you a better guess, but I'd say in my opinion, it doesn't seem like it would have been an eating disorder. But don't quote me on that.

[Aubrie]

I'm not a doctor, so I can't diagnose you anyway, but it's especially difficult to guess when your circumstances are so...I can't summon the proper adjective. I think it's kind of on the edge, and in all honesty, even doctors might waffle on whether or not it was an eating disorder. I'm sorry I can't give you a better guess, but I'd say in my opinion, it doesn't seem like it would have been an eating disorder. But don't quote me on that.

I know you can't diagnose me. I was just curious. Personally, I think it would just fall under self-harm, but my boyfriend at the time put the idea in my head :\

[screamtobeheard]

I know you can't diagnose me. I was just curious. Personally, I think it would just fall under self-harm, but my boyfriend at the time put the idea in my head :\

I'd have to agree with that it'd fall under self harm. I don't know for sure. I starve myself, purge, compulsively exercise, cut, burn, and all that good stuff. >.< So they all kind of blend together from my eyes.