i cant deal with it anymore

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I just dont think i can cope with this shit of a life any more. im hardly ever happy anymore. i just lie awake and try not to cry almost every night. it really is ruining me. i just keep on seeing the world in different ways, but mostly how its so fucked up. i dont want to live in a world like it is now. and i just cant see my life getting any better. To be honest, its like most days i get so depressed over all the little things. like the way people hate on gays, to global warming, family issues, everything. some days i just dont know whether its worth carrying on. most people would think im a happy person, but it really is just a front. I rarely go a day without thinking of ending it all. and to be serious, its really killing me, and i dont know if i can carry on. I just need to deal with it, but i dont know how, and i dont feel i can speak to anyone about it.

[kickflip845]

i know exactly how you feel man :/ it sucks alott..

[xdancing_for_rainx]

I'm sorry you're having such a rough time coping with things... never any fun in that. I agree- the world is a pretty messed up place, and it can be pretty depressing. But even though there is so much going wrong, you can still carry on and make it through. It's not easy, but it sure is possible.

Those issues you mentioned, such as discrimination and global warming- have you considered promoting awareness or being involved with them? Involvement is something that has helped me over the years, when I wasn't doing so great. I support a few organizations, (one for self-harm awareness, and another trying to free child soldiers in Africa,) and it makes me realize how much of a difference one life can make. It helps me to think that I'm making a difference in the world. Like, if I wasn't around to package food, (for instance,) that could be a few less unfortunate people getting a meal and having a better chance of survival.

Is there someone you could talk to? You said you don't feel that you could really talk to anyone, but it might not be a bad idea to give it a shot. Possibly a friend, school counselor, teacher, parent, etc. I'm sure there'd be plenty of people willing to help, that you don't have to put up a front for.

Just know that life is worth the pain we all go through. Things get better... it just takes some time. All the trials and hardships can only make us stronger and better as people.

Hope you're doing alright... Feel free to leave a message if you need to talk. Best wishes, and keep going :)

[leah.]

I lost my grandad now my parents are splitting up and I just can't cope anymore I'm Neva happy I don't have anything to keep Me going, and to top it all off I've Neva had a boyfriend it feels like noone looks at me and make me feel ugly and unwanted.

[kingbudapa]

Stay strong, your not the only one going through this. The whole world is.

[joetrip]

please don't kill yourself! i know you probably heard this before but it does get better trust me.

[OptimusPrime]

Hey dude. How are you coping right at the moment? If you want I'm always available to chat. :)

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thanks for the replies guys. it does mean a lot. i guess i have good days and bad days. so thanks.