Why do I have so many things wrong with me?

[tommay]

I am really starting to hate myself. I'm sick.. of myself. My mother calls me the "defected child". 2 years ago, I was diagnosed with insomnia. Without my prescribed medication I can stay awake for up to 3 days. But if I take my medication, it gives me mild mood swings. I've gotten myself in trouble a lot in school because I never shut my mouth when people tick me off when im on the medication.
I was diagnosed with Social anxiety .. i hate socializing. I hate talking with people, inviting people over, going out into public. Sometimes I hide when my older cousins older friends are around. (1 year older) . Everyone thinks I'm weird -_-.
I have so many health issues, not going to mention them.


My question here is, is it even possible to be so fucked up like I am? I'm sick of being like those. Am I the only one like this?

[LittlePaperStars]

:( Tom, I'm so sorry to see that you're feeling this way about yourself.
But if it helps, I feel this way all the time. I never talk to people anymore. I don't even talk to my grandparents that much anymore, which is awful, and I feel really bad about that...but I don't know how to talk to people anymore. I shut off.

I know you're a really great person, and at some point you're going to realize it :)
Everything will get better soon; it might not seem like it at the moment, but one day it will, I promise.
xx