I want to cut!

[OptimusPrime]

I really really hate my life. And I just want to cut. But I've never done it before. =/

Each day I wonder why I'm still living. I just really hate my life.

[Bath]

Sucks that I can't take you seriously because you spam a lot just to raise your post count. But if you're serious, don't do it. It's a serious addiction and it ruins your life. Read a lot of the posts in here. If you haven't done it before, you're lucky because you haven't started destroying yourself yet. You don't want to do that.

[CyanideGoodnight]

It's really not worth it. It looks and feels like an escape, but honestly, it's a trap to lure you into a horrible addiction... it's easier to start then stop, so distract yourself anyway you can not to start.

[OptimusPrime]

But. I'm nothing but a simple nobody. No one appreciates anything I do; I always cause problems; people troll me... need I list any more reasons why my life is fucked up? =/

[Bath]

But. I'm nothing but a simple nobody. No one appreciates anything I do; I always cause problems; people troll me... need I list any more reasons why my life is fucked up? =/

So try and fix it? Don't cut over it. I cut and I'm on Day 6 of no cutting, which is the longest I've gone recently, only because I'm trying to fix things.

Improving your life > breaking your skin.

[OptimusPrime]

It's just hard having to deal with everything all the time. Sometimes I wonder why I was even born.

[screamtobeheard]

It's just hard having to deal with everything all the time. Sometimes I wonder why I was even born.

We all do. But hurting yourself isn't the answer. It only ever makes things worse.

[Tenoramic]

I know what it feels being unwanted I m constantly lively in depression

[StoppingTime]

I've never cut, but I'll try to shed some insight on it...
If you haven't ever done it before, then don't start, find another way to cope. And yes, I don't know if I can take you seriously becuae of spamming, but if you aren't kidding, don't do it.

[OptimusPrime]

If people don't believe me I could easily video record the cutting and send it to you...

=/

[Skyhawk]

If it's that bad, talk to a therapist. Or me if you want, but I'm rather emotionless to many, a therapist is a better option.

[OptimusPrime]

I wouldn't be open with one of them. It's all due to this pathetic social phobia I have which I really can't talk to anyone apart from family. I can only relate to people online.

[Bath]

If people don't believe me I could easily video record the cutting and send it to you...

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We're saying it's hard to believe you, but just in case we're giving you advice. It's not something to kid about.

And this doesn't help your case. You're kind of threatening us by PROVING to us that you'd cut. That's not how it is at all. I'm sorry.

I wouldn't be open with one of them. It's all due to this pathetic social phobia I have which I really can't talk to anyone apart from family. I can only relate to people online.

And you're not alone in this, this describes me too.

[AppealToReason]

If people don't believe me I could easily video record the cutting and send it to you...

=/

That would prove nothing and seem more like attention-seeking.

Don't start though. Read posts by some of us who have been struggling to stop for years. It's not good place to be in.
Find a different way to cope.

[Fear]

I feel the same way, however, I think it's not worth the scars. I understand how you feel though. But, try to resist the feeling. If you accidently cut off your vain, I bet you would be in big trouble, and risked your lfe entirely.

[OptimusPrime]

Well then if anything bad happens everyone would be happy.

[Bath]

Well then if anything bad happens everyone would be happy.

Who would? Why would they be happy?
And these aren't rhetorical questions, answer them honestly.

[OptimusPrime]

But everyone would be happy if I died. Maybe 30% wouldn't be; but the rest would. I just get in the way and cause problems all the time even when I try not too.

[Bath]

But everyone would be happy if I died. Maybe 30% wouldn't be; but the rest would. I just get in the way and cause problems all the time even when I try not too.

You didn't answer my question. Who specifically would be sad and what specific reasons why. You're being really vague.

Also, doesn't that 30% matter? Isn't that enough to keep you going?

[RadiantBlood]

Dude, do you really want people to stare at your arms, and ask you why? and then look at you differently because of it? if you do, then thats major negitive attention. You should be seeking only the positive. doing things for others if you can, talking to whoever you can, even smiling and saying "hi" to a random stranger will brighten up someones day. Give that a shot and see what happens.
you'll be amazed at the results. as everyone else said, cutting isn't easy. once you start, its really hard to stop.

[OptimusPrime]

Now I've managed to upset someone because they're jealous I have another best friend...... FML

[Baby_James94]

I really really hate my life. And I just want to cut. But I've never done it before. =/

Each day I wonder why I'm still living. I just really hate my life.

I don't know you all to well, but from what I've seen and read you seem like an awesome guy. Cutting isn't the answer, sure at the time it sometimes is appealing but if you haven't started now DON'T it is a serious addiction that causes harm to you and sometimes others. I used to cut and know what I'm talking about, there are many other ways to deal with your stress, depression, anger, whatever problems you may have. If you ever need to talk you know I'm here, you have me on here, (possibly msn), and facebook. 3 quick and easy ways to reach me. If you have to get a hold of me it's not hard to get my number. I don't want to see you hurt yourself, and I don't want to see anyone else do it. But I and no one else can really stop others, we can only support and help people stop and find better alternatives.

[Bath]

Now I've managed to upset someone because they're jealous I have another best friend...... FML

Don't cut for your best friend then. How would they react to that?

[xktx]

whatever you do dont start, people may tell you the rush is amazing or whatever, but it doesnt last, after you feel worse than before. xx
All I can suggest is try to distract yourself, talk to a friend, or seek help? x

[OptimusPrime]

Don't cut for your best friend then. How would they react to that?

Doubt she would care she cuts a million times a year....

Hmm will see how long I last before I do. Doubt I will be able to hold it in much longer though.

[screamtobeheard]

The first time isn't about resisting the urge. It's about making the decision as to whether or not you want to torture yourself for the rest of your life. Then it becomes resistance.

[OptimusPrime]

I would be able to stop. I can stop other stuff from becoming addictive.

[Bath]

I would be able to stop.

That's hilarious.

[OptimusPrime]

So because you're addicted you judge someone else?

[Bath]

So because you're addicted you judge someone else?

Since when am I judging you? Lol do you listen to a word I say?

I'm saying that's hilarious because you cannot control an addiction. It will become an addiction. Not always after the first time, but that possibility is there. You can't say you won't get addicted. You can't say you'll be able to stop. You don't know that for sure.

Yes, you can be prone to handling things better that are usually addictions for other people.
But you can't say "I would be able to stop."

Ask ANYBODY else who has been a cutter, then get back to me. Or else you'll just keep replying with no resources and I won't bother to take you seriously.

You cut when you are stressed, angry, or depressed. Cutting releases feel good brain chemicals called Endorphins. The relief is only short and not worth the harm and the scars but once you start you need professional help to stop.

[OptimusPrime]

I'm going to stop listening to advice and actually do it in a minute. No matter what I do people are upset or angry at me. Now a stupid bitch did a Paypal complaint just because what I offered them is not what they god damn well want!!!!!

I did the job; I posted on their forum. They bitch about the way I posted even though I posted so many fuken different words in each god damn post!

GRRRRRRRRRRRR!

Sorry for the swearing; just really pissed off.

[Fear]

What happened now?

[OptimusPrime]

I did a deal for someone with posting on their forum for $5. They were happy half way so sent the cash. I then find out they bullshitted and was not happy and just wanted to cause problems!!! They scammed me.

[tommay]

When I was in middle school 2 years ago, I felt like this all the time. It turned out I suffered from mild depression. I was sad all the time, I never wanted to leave my home. I hated everybody, and everything. I even tried to kill myself. ( D: ). But, than I started talking to the counceler, and than eventually got professional help. Which is what I recommend you do! You're really lucky you haven't started cutting yourself. You're left with scars afterwords. You're going to want to hide them from your friends and family. It's pathetic, and tireing. Just think about it. A sharp razor ripping your vein open..

My heart goes out to you, and so do my prayers.

[Fear]

I did a deal for someone with posting on their forum for $5. They were happy half way so sent the cash. I then find out they bullshitted and was not happy and just wanted to cause problems!!! They scammed me.

Wait, wait, wait... Were you coding up a site?

[Aubrie]

Doubt she would care she cuts a million times a year....

Hmm will see how long I last before I do. Doubt I will be able to hold it in much longer though.

Usually it's the people close to you who cut that care the most. They know what it's like and wouldn't want to see their friends go through it. Well, maybe that's just me.

I would be able to stop. I can stop other stuff from becoming addictive.

Um, it's nearly impossible after you've done it a few times. It's highly addictive. I have very strong will power and I was addictive after maybe 3 times.

Just don't do it. It's an all around bad idea.

[AppealToReason]

I would be able to stop. I can stop other stuff from becoming addictive.

This is pretty much what most addicts say.
"Oh, I just wanted to do it once...I thought I would be fine..."
Sure, some may be able to stop. Is it really worth the risk?

[Fear]

It's like taking the first cigarette. You think you can control it, wham you're addicted.

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

I know things can be really hard,and sometimes it feels like theres no end to the bullsh*t,but honestly,cutting will make things soo much worse. At first it will seem that it helps,but slowly it starts to control u,u deal with hiding it,the addictions,the scars,everything just adds to the problems it was suppost to solve. Hunny if things arent the greatest and ur depressed,talk to someone. Paint,write,draw,listen to music. There are healthier ways to let out the pain and frustration. I promise.

[EnlightenedOne]

But everyone would be happy if I died. Maybe 30% wouldn't be; but the rest would. I just get in the way and cause problems all the time even when I try not too.

I have never met you before, but even if I met you and found you to be the most unpleasant, mean, horrible person on the planet (which I GUARANTEE I wouldn't) I would not be happy. No one is ever truly happy with another person's death, and you count as a person. You may think you are worthless, but I would be willing to bet you are worth something to somebody. Now, I'm not gonna pretend that I've been through all this before, because I haven't. I am exceptionally fortunate with the way my life has gone for me, and I am thankful for that fact every single day. However, I have helped many friends with emotional issues such as this, and through my experience with them I will tell you that it WILL get better. You probably don't think that at all, but it will. I promise. Just be strong and realize that you are worth more than you think. As for the cutting, I recommend against it. It will not solve anything, and is much more likely to cause problems.

[Redrocket]

hey buddy i am a new member and i realized were alot a like because some days I wonder why i am living.. Also when i help my friends they don't appreciate anything i do for them and some days i wanna cut myself so bad! Well maybe we can be friends and i will talk to you later see ya buddy

Red rocket is out and away

[OptimusPrime]

I keep being told not to cut then I either get upset or angry again!

Now some stupid slut decided to bash me on a forum because she can't keep her hands to herself and she's really really stupid and pathetic. If she died this world would be in a better place.

[Syvelocin]

This is when you can make a choice. You can do what none of us did, and choose a healthy coping mechanism instead. Choose something that will release your feelings, make you feel better about it, but will NOT make your issues worse. This is when you can do what self-harmers try for ages to do, swap it out for something like taking a jog, punching a pillow, ranting online, listening to music, etc, instead of taking a blade to your skin.

Depression does not mean you should cut, because depression by itself is so much easier to deal with than depression and cutting. Then you're just digging your own grave because you're giving yourself more psychological issues. It's not a club you want to be a part of. No one takes you seriously, from experience. Having this list to give everyone, for instance, mine is bipolar, OCD, social anxiety, self-harm, anorexia, it automatically takes away a huge part of your credibility to a lot of people. I have people in my life who treat me like a four year-old who has to be babysat so I don't hurt myself. You live a life of hiding and going from hospital to hospital, professional to professional, trying thousands of drugs that screw with your head. My mum's drugs have had a huge effect on her memory, to the point that she can't work anymore because she used to be a nurse, and being that messed up isn't good for that field.

And that's just the general issues. The consequences of cutting alone aren't fun. The world against you, calling you selfish, an attention-seeker, emo. You then have the choice of covering your skin in the Summer, having to endure the sweating of being in jeans and a long-sleeve shirt through the hot weather, or not cover up and let people find out about it, ridicule you, worry about you, etc. Then when you get older and have kids, I don't know about you, but it would just break my heart to have my child ask me "What are all those scars from mum?" And good luck with more professional jobs. I haven't had issues working at Starbucks, but I'm sure some job interviewers would get turned off by that little "teenage attention-seeking behaviour" all along your arms.

And let's not get into the risk factors. Damaging nerves, hitting arteries, just having to show up at the emergency room and get stitched up all the time.

You have better choices right now. And I hope you know that.