Why do I want to hurt myself?

[Fear]

As I mentioned on my thread in the depression category, I am a bit depressed. However, I have rage in me. I sometimes I want to hurt my self to get a different sort of pain, instead of the mental. I even start punching walls. I want to knock someone out who caused the greif in me. I even have suicidal and homicidal thoughts. I just want to go away. I never cut myself, I dislike pain, but I somehow want to, but I hurt myself by other ways... why? Help?

[Painted_Indian_Horse]

cutting is a physical outlet for emotional pain. the urge to do it is your mind probably trying to avoid or repress sad or angry memories and thoughts. try to find a healthier outlet, like exercise or art, music or even talking to someone. just don't start cutting if you can help it. it can become way more than a crutch. it can become an addiction. please don't let it into your life.
if you ever need to talk just send me a message. :hug:

[Fear]

Thanks, I also did another silly choice. I tried smoking to see if it would relax me. It did, but I had cravings. I luckily managed to get away from it since it was early stages.

[Painted_Indian_Horse]

yeah smoking can be very addictive. been there done that :P

[OptimusPrime]

Have you tried talking to any counselor about it or anything? Depends if you're opened to 'strangers' about these things in real life rather than just online. I myself cannot speak to counselors so if you can't I completely understand.

[Fear]

Have you tried talking to any counselor about it or anything? Depends if you're opened to 'strangers' about these things in real life rather than just online. I myself cannot speak to counselors so if you can't I completely understand.

People have told me that, but I don't want to tell people in person. I don't like strangers, and in a way, I feel like I am stupid for over reacting. And, if my parents found out, then I got another problem on my hands. This is why I like to say what I think in text. I am awful in person, I never say anything. I express myself through the written language.

[OptimusPrime]

People have told me that, but I don't want to tell people in person. I don't like strangers, and in a way, I feel like I am stupid for over reacting. And, if my parents found out, then I got another problem on my hands. This is why I like to say what I think in text. I am awful in person, I never say anything. I express myself through the written language.

No, you're not stupid for over reacting. You just need people to talk to about these things. Whether it be online or offline. If you even need to rant you can send me your stuff through PM. I do not mind what you say; I am here to help you.

Yes, maybe I troll and maybe I act like a jerk to you. But to be honest you're a really good friend and I really have no one as amazing as you as a friend.

[Fear]

No, you're not stupid for over reacting. You just need people to talk to about these things. Whether it be online or offline. If you even need to rant you can send me your stuff through PM. I do not mind what you say; I am here to help you.

Yes, maybe I troll and maybe I act like a jerk to you. But to be honest you're a really good friend and I really have no one as amazing as you as a friend.

Thanks, man. I appreciate it. Yeah, maybe I haven't spoken to you in ages, but you always bring humour to my life. Just flick a text if I can't access the computer. Thanks, Aaron.

[dontcare97]

i know the feeling, like your caught in between suicide and going on a homicidal rampage. Self harm isn't a healthy outlet to you problems, even thou it helps a lot. You need something to take over in an addictive manner so you can focus on that. Writing, drawing, painting, reading, blogging, stuff like that will help a lot. Doing something you love repeatedly that doesn't involve harmful things like smoking or cutting can take the edge off. for me, it puts me in a trance and I really don't care about what's going on. It can numb you.

[xktx]

counselling is what people have always told me, but i have issues with strangers... and trust :/
But all I recommend is try a distraction. A friend told me to write all your feelings down on a piece of paper, legible or not, it doesnt matter. Then if you can do it safely, burn it, the fire is relaxing and youve taken our your anger on paper, if you cant burn it, then try ripping it up? x

[Fear]

i know the feeling, like your caught in between suicide and going on a homicidal rampage. Self harm isn't a healthy outlet to you problems, even thou it helps a lot. You need something to take over in an addictive manner so you can focus on that. Writing, drawing, painting, reading, blogging, stuff like that will help a lot. Doing something you love repeatedly that doesn't involve harmful things like smoking or cutting can take the edge off. for me, it puts me in a trance and I really don't care about what's going on. It can numb you.

counselling is what people have always told me, but i have issues with strangers... and trust :/
But all I recommend is try a distraction. A friend told me to write all your feelings down on a piece of paper, legible or not, it doesnt matter. Then if you can do it safely, burn it, the fire is relaxing and youve taken our your anger on paper, if you cant burn it, then try ripping it up? x

Thanks, I may take that in concideration. I also noticed that since I have exams at school, and all the pressure oif no time to do any proper work, I'm getting way too stressed. Even sleep doesn't help.