I find it pathetic that I am angry with my life

[Fear]

The fact that I am slowly going blind is my most fear of life. Doctors told mum and I that my eyesight is slowly getting worse until eventually I will end up completely blind. I partially sighted now, I find many things hard to see, but I manage. I also hate how my dad is such a fool towards me. He doesn't seem to understand anything and he doesn't treat me like a son. I annoys me, it saddens me so much. My mums new partner even treats me better than him, and I got to admit, I feel like he is more of a father towards me. I feel unloved, I feel angry and I have no where to put that anger. I even get bullied a lo, and I don't do anything about it. I ust let them do it. -_-

i should just think happy thoughts, but my brain resists it. Many people go through worse things, but I still feel depressed and agro.

[OptimusPrime]

That's not good Adam. I hope if you do become blind you get allowed a guide dog. I heard they're hard to come by in New Zealand as you have to be signed up for such and such and do such and such blah blah.

[Fear]

I'm registered to the Royal Foundation of the Blind...

Your no help. Aaron. :P

[OptimusPrime]

if yuo can raed tihs, you hvae a sgtrane mnid, too.
Can you raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can.

i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs forwrad it.

[Fear]

I can't read that at all.

[Smartypants]

dude, 1st of all ...I feel sorry for you.. but hey, don't they say that when you lose one of your senses, the others get stronger? and who knows if you could ever see clearly again for an eye transplant? cheer up!

Can you raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can.

OMG I can read it normally(!) like my brain knows what the words are!

[Fear]

dude, 1st of all ...I feel sorry for you.. but hey, don't they say that when you lose one of your senses, the others get stronger? and who knows if you could ever see clearly again for an eye transplant? cheer up!

Since my eyesight is that terrible, I may become in more of a risk in becoming blind. My eyesight is that bad.

[OptimusPrime]

Sorry for my rudeness. I thought you were joking as that's what others do. I have bad eye sight too so I know how it's like. =/ Hope you get better.

[Fear]

Sorry for my rudeness. I thought you were joking as that's what others do. I have bad eye sight too so I know how it's like. =/ Hope you get better.

Thanks, Aaron. I can understand how you thought I was joking.

[OptimusPrime]

Thanks, Aaron. I can understand how you thought I was joking.

On previous websites I've ran I've had people make up excuses when they're going to get banned such as:
pls no ban cuz i eye sight funny always get tease and jus want keep safe here as no one tease have bad eye sight pls think no ban pls pls pls aaron

That is one of the saved PM's I've got on my computer from one of them.

[Fear]

I get the same on the other forum I go to, except mental retardedness is the case.

[OptimusPrime]

Mental Retardedness. Isn't that what you have?

[Fear]

Yes, yes I do.

[OptimusPrime]

Bumping is... well someone did tell me what bumping is. Like frowned at or something. I have no clue! But they say bumping is bad for the health. You could get some sort of disease from the computer just by bumping your topic.

[Fear]

lol Aaron, stop being a total twat.

It means to deliberatly make the thread go to the top of the category.

[Donkey]

Yeah, bumping isn't allowed. I deleted your post... read the rules please.

[Fear]

Yeah, bumping isn't allowed. I deleted your post... read the rules please.

I just quickly scanned it. Didn't notice it, sorry.

[fenrirdies]

I was never really bullied but I was talked about, when ever someone would talk about I would have a comeback to make them look stupid. Once I even made the teacher laugh at the guy, If your dad is not much of a dad ignore him that is what I would do . You're lucky you're going blind soon you won't have to how shitty things and people are becoming .

[Fear]

Yes, and it scares me though that I may nEver see anything but black.

[fenrirdies]

that is understandable but like death it is it will happen regardless so you shouldn't fear it. I use to fear death no I really don't give a bleep , who knows science could cure blindness some day weare still teens so don't worry untill it happens.

[Fear]

That's true. I never used to fear death, but since I am now an Athiest it has all changed. I doubt I ever believe a religon again though. Science proved enough.

[Megson]

I can relate. I've been told that my eyesight is getting worse every year. Basically, I could eventually go blind if I don't get surgery sometime in the future, but I'm not sure if that's even going to be a permanent fix for me.
And I understand what its like to be bullied too. I hope things start looking up for you! Maybe with luck, there will be a procedere avaliable to help you out in the future. Science is pretty amazing these days!

[Fear]

Indeed. However, they know how to fix everything else, but the eyes. My eyesight is
-12/20. Thats out of 20/20 vision. Thats worse than 0. It sucks, and they say its getting worse every year. They haven't even told me my condition... Its to do with my retina anyway. However, they say its not gene related, but some of my family are getting blindspots and other things. However, my eyesight is the worst. I have to wear these thick lensed glasses. WHoich ruins my confidnce in relationships. I haven't asked out a girl in my life never had a girlfriend because I hate my glasses, it makes me look terrible. Though, I hope for the future they can find a cure.

[Tenoramic]

I am angry with my life. I just have to deal with it, when I cant I just go drown myself whatever I like to do aka shopping. Even I can't effort but I just get it , n if I wanna return it I do so.

[Fear]

I am angry with my life. I just have to deal with it, when I cant I just go drown myself whatever I like to do aka shopping. Even I can't effort but I just get it , n if I wanna return it I do so.

hmmm